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Hey Ya!

2009-07-05T03:50:00.002+08:00

Hey icicle it has been long, life is great, just that CommonTest is coming meaning exam is around the corner and then there is the driving lessons.. and furthermore now i'm down with a illness it suck big time... it is killing my throat.. Feeling a bit emotion-filled tonight... I just keep thinking bout my sweetest lil thing.. sleeping by her side.. hugging her.. pushin her off the bed.. Life is good.. Except for studies.. totally gives me major headache, and yesterday was like the 3rd time i ever went clubbing and the same shit happens.. COCK FEST!!! WOOHOO!!!! i'm not complaining that there should be more girls cause i just wanna dance with my baby. i love you!!!!!!!!! anyway goin sleep alr not been sleepin in all the right time but all the wrong time.. causing me insomnia alr.. ZzZzZzZzZzZ.. night icicle.. night baby.. i love you...

Post

2009-05-01T02:13:00.002+08:00

Hey sup icicle.. been some time since i post.. your birthday is over eh.. been 4 years.. just feel like posting today.. I have no idea why. But why am i so detached to my friends? why doesnt it bother me whether friends abandon me or not? Life is great. Sch started. Life is still goin on. I mean people come and go.. if one have decided to walk out. just walk out. turn and just keep walking.. you know everytime i see a her blog.. i pity him i really do.. there are things i know i guess he still have to learn.. god bless him.. lol.. beside that i have nothin else alr.. Happy with my life.. Happy with the one i love.. nothing better then this.. ^^ night icicle.

No peace no mind

2009-03-12T22:14:00.002+08:00

AH....................................................................................................................
MAJOR.............................................................................................................
SIANSATION...................................................................................................
3 MORE DAYS...................................................................................................
SUPER LONG AH...............................................................................................
HOPE SHE IS FINE.............................................................................................
I NEED SOMETHING TO CALM MY MIND SOMETHING TO GIVE ME PEACE....
MY MIND IS HAVING A WAR WITH MY HEART ONCE AGAIN...
THE OTHER TIME MY MIND AND HEART BOTH LOST...
YET THIS TIME I AM SURE MY HEART IS WHERE IT IS BUT MY MIND IS JUZ...
ARGH.............................................................................................................................................
NOTHIN BUT A WORRIED SOUL.............................................................................................
SHALL TRUST HER.......................................................................................................................
SHE WILL TAKE CARE OF HERSELF KENG HEI SHE WILL LIKE SHE PROMISED......
SO CLEAR YOUR MIND AND JUST TRUST HER.....................................................................

Sup

2009-02-23T02:22:00.002+08:00

Sup icicle. been awhile hasnt it.. pretty much life beens great.. Nothin much to say.. guess life is more stress free den it use to be.. At least now i only have to stress about studies and nothing else.. Love life now pretty much is nothin but colourful rainbow.. and i sure hope this rainbow will last for a long long long longgggggggg time.. Seriously andrea has been very very good to me... Like i really have no idea how to tell you but hell this is seriously wonderful... Seriously.. that day when we were watchin Benjamin Buttons.. In the show it kinda mention how everything really juz falls into place.. one thing affecting another.. and finally causing something to happen... Pretty much calling it fate i guess.. Like seriously..

If i had not went swimming with them the day before.. if i had not asked.. if they had not invited... if i had not sign on... If i had not get my money.. If i had not been single.. If i had not given a chance to club.. if i had not drink... if i had not dance.. if they did not see her.. if she was not forced to dance with justin.. if justin was any cuter.. if she saw something in justin.. if i did not wore white and if she had not wore black... if i had not turned.. if i had not seen her smile... if i had not talked to her... if i had not dance with her.. if she had not seen something in me.. if i had not when there and sit.. if i had not asked for her number.. if i had not been formal.. if i had not made an impression.. if i had not msged her again.. if she had not replied me... if i had not moved on.. if i had not forgive myself... if i had not been truthful.. if i had not tell her how i feel.. if i had not been true to my heart... if i had not done a lot of things before this.. i would have not had met her.. the list icicle.. goes on and on and on... but u get the point... seriously.. ever since i met her she had been wonderful... she is seriously beautiful both inside and out.. What more is there to ask for... Simply now only one thing much left to say and do... Cherish... Cherish her.. Cherish the moments spent with her... Cherish the thing she do.. (touchwood... pui pui pui choy choy choy!) Cherish before losing her..

Icicle.. I would say.. pretty much that she is someone i truely fall in love with... not cause i am lonely.. not cause i need sex.. not cause i am a hero.. not cause of any causes... Just simply... Love... Guess That's pretty much it... Night Icicle.. Turning 4 next month... Just In Case.. Happy Birthday Icicle.. thanks for always being here... Nites Baby.. *hugs and kisses*... I Love You... Sleep tight world... Pleasent Dreams..

Wassup!

2009-01-05T00:47:00.002+08:00

Sup icicle.. Life never been better.. cept for the fact sch man.. tat totally suck balls... Other than that.. Life is great simple and fun.. Being with andrea is simply juz no worries.. our relation is juz getttin better and better i guess.. i mean she is totally great i am glad i found her.. though she may not be perfect.. but she is juz simply more den i can ask for.. What more can i say.. I love her. anyway happy '09 icicle.. Hope things will go great this year.. hope life will still be smooth sailing... Time to zzz... sch tmr yos.. Nite World.. Nite icicle.. Nite Baby..

Japan

2008-12-16T23:38:00.003+08:00

Icicle... it the 4th day she is at japan alr.. like sian got a not.. i miss her la... i cant wait to see her soon.. You know this few days a lot have been running through my mind.. really i had so many questions without answers.. But seriously... i think i just simply miss her a lot.. without her here juz feel so different... for the past few days i had been guarding in front of my laptop waiting for her to be online.. juz really happy to spend that lil time with her to chat with her.. it makes me feel so much closer to her..

Baby.. i really dunno how to explain how i feel... the overwhelming feeling inside is juz so strong.. juz telling u tat I Love You.. is juz like not enough... Juz showing u that i love you is juz now enough.. my heart scream.. and scream but juz i juz cant find a word or phrase to tell u how i feel.. So mayb closes to it is tat I Love You.. I'm sorry that i let my doubts get the better of me.. but i simply couldnt help to feel green.. but baby.. u.. u understand.. u assured me... i really feel damn happy.. i dunno how to tell you but i really juz feel that i need you by my side.. i am afraid to lose you.. but at the same time if i really had i would let u go.. the reason is simple.. is juz cuz I Love You.. Let our past be of our past.. Let Us Walk Together... Let Us Start A New Chapter.. Baby.. I cant promise u anything.. But I will try my best for everything.. ^^

Baby.. I LOVE YOU... I LOVE YOU....

I LOVE YOU

2008-12-09T22:04:00.001+08:00

Yo icicle.. I'm happy! hee... yesterday went out with my baby.. den was like happy la.. hee. got to spend the whole day with her.. but it seems so short la.. seriously.. and this friday she will vavavoom to japan for 2 weeks like sian la.. I alr miss her everyday alr.. now 2 weeks i think i can coma for 2 weeks alr.. lol.. test coming liao.. sian la.. like totally.. no idea how i am gonna do my math.. FUCK! anyway seriously i am damn happy tat i so found this hot gf of mine.. like the way she treat me.. lol nice la.. seriously.. seriously finally found a gal who love me as much as i love her.. I SO LIKE LOVE HER LA!!!! hee.. anyway... i gotta go alr.. ICICLE I'M HAPPY LA!!!!!

想

2008-11-12T03:39:00.001+08:00

好久好久没像现在这样了。。。
安安静静地听着歌，回想起我近五年来所经历过的事情。
想着一想五年了。同我认识她那天起我的生活渐渐地改变了很多。
我也在这五年内成长了许多。这五年反复如火箭般一样一转眼就这样过去了。
可在这五年来也有度过很多慢长的夜晚。这些夜晚都好慢好慢哦，一个人躺在冷冰冰的床上，
想啊想，有时真是让人感到孤单。
这五年来经过了四段感情。实话说在这四段感情中只有两个人在我心中有个无人可代替的地位，
这两段爱情都有一年那么长，一年虽然谈不上天长地久，但这两个一年可就是同我会说话那天起到如今可也可能是我最快乐的日子吧。
一点也不孤单。但就是我不知足，也就应为这‘不自足’把自己人生最快乐的日子也弄丢了。
也只能怪自己太傻了。
好久也没单身了，也真有点吃不消。但为了我自己，为了我干妈与姐，和那些都关心我的人。
我一定要坚强。我也开此习惯一个人生活了。
“一个人也只有一生可活。少个后悔中比多个好。”
三思而后行。要劳劳的记着。
好吧我也就写到这把，晚了，我也累了，晚安。

LaLaLa

2008-11-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

Lalala.. Dunno wad is in my mind.. I feel like i am balancing on a fine fine line.. I am trying to fall one way.. but i juz cant.. seems like there is something holding me on the line.. Think it's myself.. How do one forgive oneself... When Does one learn and how does one learn to be guilt free? GUILT.. it is something tat i my heart is heavily weigh down by... Forgive Me.. I'm sorry... Forgive me... I'm Sorry...

ST_U

2008-10-21T23:57:00.006+08:00

ARGH..... ARGH.... ARGH..... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAKE TAT KNIFE BESIDE U AND JUZ STAB RIGHT THROUGH MY HEART.... ARGH!!!!!!!!!! I NEED A DRINK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED MY BED......................... I NEED TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Zook

2008-10-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

Hii.. Icicle i'm back.. hmm feel like a different person now.. hmm went to 'Zook'(Zouk) on friday.. with eddie, cong, marcus, meng, kel, az and azhari.. kinda fun and i'm glad i went there lo..Though it is my first time there and dun really like the music.. but still hey it is something new.. cool cool cool.. i am happy tat i went lo.. argh!! YEAH!!! Hmm.. and finally got my ass to SSDC to book my basic theory lo.. ah bo forever wont get my licence liao lo.. i swear god by next yr i gonna get my licence...

PPLE ON THE ROAD WATCH OUT KENG HEI IS COMING TO THE ROAD!!!! ROAR!!!

Hmm.. Other den tat.. nothin much lo.. sch sch sch.. slack slack slack... NO LIFE.. but at least better den holidays la.. stuck at home cant freakin work.. due to certain reasons.. It is like Slack-a-ton.. lol.. Yawns.... Thank You Fate... Yea U ROCK!!!

Thanks

2008-08-15T18:58:00.003+08:00

GOOD BYE... ^^

Feelings

2008-08-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

A jyys docr laor si Amamsy.. A der lou vy nod byyr mirtomtarg jih o sirg tacy bet hymyrtsu vy mirtomt li cemn e kriv.. A der erdyhltord ojtyh li sirg o sas bat ij thelt ar cy osli der nozy.. a cyor vnu thelt o geu vni al giar ti di tny vhirg tnargl.. bet pess bomk ord rit thelt o geu vni nisd bomk ord der di o tnarg si.. saky vtj.. a cyor a hyossu nod rit say larmy vy jahlt mnottyd si.. uyt lny der bysayzy cy.. lny ltass kyyp tnarkar a oc nadarg licytnarg.. saky a der kriv vnu si.. Ol cemn ol a vor nyh ar cu ohcl.. a vor ti bharg nyh nopparyll mef a kriv lny nozy jyysargl jih cy.. wef tot lny saky o ltepad jysso vni jemkarg irsu kriv niv ti tosk.. tnot jemkyh wef vor nyh jih lyx si.. a mor mirjahc tot lnat.. aj rit vnu vass di vhirg tnarg ord nisd bomk.. wef vorro omt irsu si.. mmb.. saky tot ti jemkar goar thelt.. a tyss e mor gi yot lnat.. e riv git gj ltass nisd nyh saky lny eh gj e jemkarg gi yot lnat k.. e tnark e zyhu mety.. e mor yot lnat tny fii tny ihorg etor osli siik byttyh dyr e.. jemkar nyss der ely nyh ol o jossarg pod ik.. rb.. li vod lny al vassarg lny al o jycosy e jemkar nyss al o geu e vorro joss bomk ir o gos.. wef bymef e kriv lny vass gab e lyx.. e mor hyossu yot lnat.. e tnark a derri vod tny jemk e tnarkar wef tot yzyr a lou sy lny virt bysayzy cy irsu.. hyossu pallyd si.. vnu mort e siik ot cy ord tnark biet cy? a oc tny iry vni theysu sizy e si.. uyt e mor diebt cy.. tnorkl osit.. a derri vod ti lou si.. e gosl osvoul lou vor licyiry ti sizy e licyiry ti sizy e riv git iry vni al vassarg ti day jih e e jhyokar ltass diebt nal vihdl.. uo tnorkl osit.. tny jemkar mb osli pall cy ijj lou vorro micy ojtyh o vnasy dyr ar tny yrd gab cy lnat lou vod a vorro norg iet vatn tnyc jemkarg vorro norg iet vatn nyh lou so.. mmb lou ertas li ramy.. rit noppu der micy so.. gab 50 a cef lyy eh jomy on.. der gab so.. a pou culysj so.. sacbya bi sea on.. mmb.. lemk cu mimk so nih.. RB... PALLYL CY IJJ!!! a noty at vnu e mort siik ot tny iry vni hyossu sizy e hyossu siik arlady.. ermirdatairos sizy si.. vnu mort erdyhltord nac o bat si... LICY NIV A DIEBT EH VIHDL.. OHGN!!!!! A HYOSSU JYYS POAR SO!!!!!!

Smiles..

2008-08-11T01:56:00.004+08:00

Hihi icicle.. today.. went out at 9 plus.. time flew like crazy till 1 lo.. haha.. was slacking somewhere but time still flew.. den.. today siao lo morning.. had to wake up get chalet stuff den had to go some freaking disturbin chinese restaurant to had tea.. to "Yam Cha".. i tell u they are like freaking disturbing, juz reach only haven even warm the sit.. you want this you wan this.. you wan egg tart..(from the left).. seconds later. You wan egg tart freshly baked..(from the right).. like WTH!! LET ME EAT IN PEACE!!! all my dad's fault la.. actually they say wanna go CATHAY RESTAURANT eat de lo.. wa all thanks to my wonderful father.. we end up eating at a disturbin place.. den there was yesterday.. it was fun too.. ^^ at first juz went out den like juz wanted to go marina there at first is wanna see the firework.. but end up also never see la.. den was like walking back and forth at marina there.. finally feel tat like totally bored liao and wanna go home they say go KBOX.. like zzz.. ex sia.. but still had been long since i play like tat liao.. we shouted we sang we play.. all was fun man.. 5 guys with the same problem singing all the love songs sia.. like so sad la.. den woke up to get chalet stuff rite i actually woke up at 10 plus lo.. guess wad time i slept lo... 4 la.. like zzz i nearly dun wanna go buy my stuff lo.. but recieve a call and my day felt better!! until reach home sleep lo.. cannot tahan ah.. sleep until like pig like tat.. 2 hour solid.. until my call come again.. den woke up lo.. hang up le den watch olympic.. my dad lo.. siao bout that olympic.. but luckily got laptop chatted on msn.. till dinner and den went out.. tat's practically this 2 days.. and den there is tuesday lo.. which theoretically is tomoro la.. is chalet le.. later still muz call them check on somethings lo.. den there is also test later.. totally no idea how the hell i am suppose to do probability lo.. siao liao.. hmm but cant wait for the chalet.. wanna slack and chill and go crazy like mad dogs.. WOOT!!!! lol.. yea.. i think i stop here ba.. nite nite.. oh.. one last thing.. I am an A*SHOLE and i am STUPID, CRAZY,SILLY.. and i will get SLAP and will go die too.. but wad is new is i am an AS*HOLE...

New Skin!!

2008-08-09T02:22:00.000+08:00

Hey guess wad icicle got a change of skin!! yea been long since i changed my skin.. tot i do something new.. yea here it is.. hmm.. life has juz become different lately.. dun really wanna talk bout it.. cuz it is late nite.. if talk bout it i think i dun need sleep liao.. hmm feel so stupid leh.. hmm.. how ah.. think hor.. stupid is like tat one.. no medicine to heal de.. hmm "SLAP YOU" lol.. this phrase hear until happy.. dunno why.. kena call stupid.. krazi.. go die.. but juz enjoyed it.. hmm recently found out tat u will know who is by ur side in ur worse of time.. like YEAH! THANKS YOU ALL FOR BEING THERE FOR ME.. APPRECIATED DEEPLY... ^^ today went to chomp chomp lo.. eat until so bloated.. but was so happy eating it.. like really enjoyed the food a lot.. but had to go toilet twice lo.. like wth... drank too much water.. den nth much le lo.. slacked at home.. den feeling stupid.. yea.. dunno wad to do also.. yawns.. think i stop here le.. Nite Nite icicle.. Nite nite everyone..

Thinking

2008-07-31T17:32:00.000+08:00

Drec faag ryt paah Rayjah yht Ramm.. e vaam tysh denat ma.. ajano heda lyhd cmaab demm syop 4 bmic 5 ajah 6.. aqysc yna lusehk yht e vaam dyd e naymmo lyhd pa pudranat puid ed yhosuna mu.. E naymmo vaam cu denat ma elelma.. e haat cusa uha amca du cyja sa.. e tih fyh drec yhosuna.. e fyhhy kad uid uv so cramm.. e vaam mega cruidehk e vaam mega toehk e vaam tayt ymnayto.. fro dyd e vaam dyd hu uha ihtancdyht sa.. pid drec vaf tyoc e vaam dyd e vehymmo vuiht dyd fru yna druca dryd femm vunajan cdyht po sa.. e naymmo vaam jano ceyh jano denat ma mu.. mega tihhu ruf muhk suna e lyh dyga drec cred.. E naymmo ryda i fro tu oui ymfyoc kep sa vymca ruba.. fro tu e vaam dyd e lyhd meja fedruid i.. fro lyhd i muug pylg yd sa.. oac e haat oui.. fro lyhd oui.. tuhd i vaam rybbo paehk fedr sa? tih i vaam dyd dnuipmac yna hud drana frah i yna fedr sa.. fro tu i ryja du drehg cu silr fro luhcetan cu silr.. Fro tu i ryja du muja cusauha fru redc i yht hud cusauha fru mad i ku palyica ra muja i.. fro lyhd i ajan caa dyd? Fro lyhd i yccina sa.. E tu mega so linnahd kv duu.. cra ec kuut duu cra ec lida.. e sayh cra sygac sa myikr liw uv ran lida uidmuug.. cra sygac sa rybbo yd desac.. e tihhu fyt e fyh.. e ys yvnyet uv mucehk ajanouha fro ys e cu knaato.. ynkr... e ryda ed e ryda ed!!!! LYH CUSAUHA CYJA SA LYH CUSAUHA CYMJYKA SA VNUS YMM DREC SACC!!! LYH CUSAUHA DYD E LYH RYBBEMO PA FEDR YBBAYN EH VNUHD UV SA!!!! YNKR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! E RYDA ED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Juz Bloggin

2008-06-27T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hi hi.. Hmm went to various blogs today so gave me the vib to write sumthing hmm.. wad to write.. oh.. there is camp tmr. which should be fun ba.. i mean lots of fun pple is there.. Chatted with some pple today which is rather intersting i mean found somethings out.. and i realise something i find tat i have become a whole diff person liao i mean back then i complain so much tat i scare myself worse stil i see some of the things i type i wonder how did i even tot of such phrases.. think true potential only unleash when one is serverely affected by sad emotion great potential is unleashed.. but i have been having a great and happy life.. great pple in my life..Fun and more Fun other den studies.. Yawn tired le tmr got paper and i need to pack my bag i go orh orh le nite nite..

Bad news Bad news And Worse news

2008-06-05T14:44:00.000+08:00

Lab test Lab test and more lab test.. haix.. this is not working 3 lab test 1 math paper in 2 days so the omg like dun even know wad is it all about lo.. dunno test for wad also juz gib us the marks and pass us and let us get the diploma and get the hell out of that place.. studying really juz cannot make it.. haix.. STRESS!!!!
Anyway was like suan to blog also.. but nvm blogging is good too can let out steam.. and there is plenty of steam in me.. hmm there is one good news too though tat is i am goin for the camp... Sure tat it is goin to be fun.. cuz all the fun pple are there.. and Ms Celine and all will go torturing Johnny, making him whoosh here and there.. lol..
Hmm.. Holiday faster come la 2 more day nia.. Haix.. So sian.. Friday lab test ARGH... Really so sian tat one i really cannot understand lo.. like wth
A+B-A-B+
juz like tat muz draw one curcuit out i totally cannot understand how to draw lo..
Haix.. Wanna Die Liao.. Think i go Die first.. k.. bye bye...

Camp Eagle

2008-04-09T13:33:00.000+08:00

Hello Ici.. I am back.. Much to say Cuz there was much fun..
Had Camp eagle weeks ago it was totally fun.. Met So many interesting pple so many interesting things tat happened.. During the camp i made so many more friends.. and i have learn more about myself.. Most importantly i met a Wise OLD man... Kelvin.. He enlighten me with his words of wisdom.. Was quite touch and honoured.. Then also i found friends like Celine.. Rui Long.. and L.. And so much more this pple are so fun to be with... Then today we had Freshie Orientation.. FUN FUN FUN.. there was so many fun things tat happen.. Like Taking our BANG photo.. it is really damn funny la... everytime we take out BANG photo we will make so much noise lo..
Eh.. den more or less this is all tat happen lo.. Though this is not much but everything comes from my heart.. Johnny johnny WHOOSSSS!!!!

Hey

2008-02-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

Hey it has been months long long months since i ever blogged. Icicle you have so forgotten by everyone. Which on the other hand is not half bad. I mean in this case no one will come and see! haha in another month or so u gonna be 3 years old le.. you have been there everytime i need you. You never seize to listen. So many things happened betrayal, happiness, sadness and anger. Hmm pple come and go passin by like how the stream flows; running and running till it reaches a river and finally out to the sea. From a small group of friends they met more friends and slowly they forgets about you. Guess i have nothin much to say here. Icicle thank you for being here in my darkess hours. I am not that kid anymore. I have grown to think and found tat life is really juz about forgetting.

Worlds

2007-10-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

This is not a big post or wad so ever icicle..

It has been so long since i ever posted.. I juz realised why bother if someone is going to read my post or not.. If they are no so be it.. I was watchin Drumline on channel 5 this noon and took some time to finish watchin Bridge to Terabithia on my lappy.. both shows really was meaningful in their own way.. Drumline is much like Coach Carter it but this time instead of the a team it is this one guy whose attitude makes him irritating.. he was blinded by his talent to be the best drummer.. and as for his group leader he was blinded by this guy.. This guy he learnt in the end tat being in a band is not about himself.. As for the leader he realise that he was jealous of this guy and lost sight of having to build up the drumline... It is really meaningful lo the show i mean it really reflect what we pple in this society are now.. we are so blinded by pple talents and our own ego that we lost sight of our own goals... seriously speakin pple in this world should really juz take a min in their life thinking bout what they have done in their life.. many would juz realise life flew pass so fast that we have left so much behind... even our goals... So is this really what pple want? Gain Sights Of Others And You Lose Sight Of Your Own's...

As For Bridge to Terabithia it is juz a sad story and really it brought me to a new world.. Damn sad when it reaches the part that the friend died.. I mean why they became good friends den this happen.. This is yet another fact of life.. We never realise how fragile life is.. and that we never really learn to cherish until the thing is gone.. The story doesnt really have a storyline tat has booms and bangs.. it is juz simply 2 kids with each other and their imaginations.. Close Your Eyes But Keep Ur Mind Wide Open.. A short phrase in the show.. Really makes me slow down and juz think... Expand my mind.. It was juz simply relaxing.. I mean shows like that are never really apprieciated.. pple always juz wanna watch something that will scare their ass off or comedy.. i mean they are fine but why dont stop and take a look at something else... It is not always the shows with all the booms and bangs that tells a story.. Life is more than tat.. Terabithia... A Fantasy Within...

Hmm.. finally a soulful jazz song to top all up.. It is really interesting where i heard this song and trigger me to look for this song... My mates and I was like walkin to AMK hub.. den we heard this street performer sang this song... and it really lighted up my soul... It is a slow jazz words in this songs are simple... nothing fancy.. it's the same beat throughout... but it is never boring.. instead it is really soothing.. Like what i told one friend of mine.. It really slows lifes down and really make me feel very relaxed.. Things In This World Juz Gets More And More Complicated Day By Day... One Day Everyone Would Juz Get So Tie Up Juz To Talk...

It's been long

2007-07-25T16:24:00.000+08:00

Hi Icicle.. it has been long since i posted... Haix.. lot of things happened, whether it how i feel juz read and think ba.. the most important thing about this post is about life.. and a new way i look at life.. And this is wad i found.. Life is about choices and upon this choices is regert.. and i have been regerting a lot of things since the very first.. How i hope i had always been single and not crave for the feeling of being loved.. Now this is a post of many others i have before that when i type it kinda hurt so badly inside.. Yet my heart had lost so many pieces of itself that it does not hurt anymore.. Ignorance it may be but whatever it is i juz cant feel the pain as muz as it was before.. I regert doing a lot of things in life.. Seriously Love life.. Friendship.. and Personal Life.. But there is so much things that i can never say out.. guess this is life.. Haix.. guess my brain juz isn't functioning rite.. i better go rest nite....

too bored

2007-05-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

yo.. it's so bored.. haha.. nothin much happen lately lo.. hmm.. except for rock climbin lo... haha.. anyway life has been fine juz need more sleep onli. haha.. k la i realli dun have much to write shall stop here ba..

Long Post

2007-05-01T15:55:00.000+08:00

Hi.. long time no blog le.. hmm suddenl felt like blogging. there is so much to say.. hmm firstly happy 2 years old bloggie.. hmm it had been like 2 years since this blog had started it had go through quite an amount of post with me.. a lot of feelings of mine had been store in here.. and now i have something to say too.. tat is i realli feel very tired le.. my brain had been processing a lot a lot of things lo.. being with her i realli have a lot of stress here and there lo.. but i cant blame it on her.. it's not her fault.. i juz find tat i'm not the keng hei that i'm in the past.. the cheerful guy tat has realli no stress of life lo.. but now is like everyday is like stress of wad to do.. stressed of how to make her happy.. stressed bout family matter.. stressed bout school matter.. stress here and there.. though all the stress might seem minor but definitely if u add them all up it's not as small as it seems.. i realli need to talk to shareen le lo.. onli she know wad i wanna hear.. haix.. i realli dunno wad to do if i didnt know her lo.. hmm realli lo i feel tat she is realli like an additional mother to me.. haix... firstly school matter actualli it's kinda difficult lo.. but i'm tryin my best to understand when ever i can.. den my laptop is like givin me tonnes and tonnes of trouble lo.. den i think i have to take it back to service again lo.. which i already did once la.. den it is like their company is at jurong u know siao la.. secondly family.. since i cut my hair 2 weeks ago and after the quarrel me and my mother is havin cold war lo.. she everytime tell us when someone is angry pardon him for wad he say but in her case she dun apply it to herself.. lame la.. den thirdly is relationship lo.. hmm realli dunno wad i wan in life lo.. cuz it's like i'm happy being with her but i juz feel that there is something wrong with our relationship.. i dun wanna break up and end up regretting again.. my head is realli spinnin lo.. i'm realli still to young for all this relationship thing le b.. mayb it's juz tat i'm still too playful lo.. hmm.. i realli dunno wad i wan in life lo.. it's juz so sickenin i juz cant b tied down i juz cant stop playin lo.. haix.. but i dun wanna hurt her.. it's realli realli sickenin.. life is so dull lo.. juz hope tat i can realli get my head cleared out asap so tat i dun make her sad ba.. k i think i shal stop here ba.. enjoyin our life to the fullest is never as easy as it seems...

Back in Singapore

2007-02-24T13:30:00.001+08:00

Yo... I'm back.. haha.. It was a boring week.. doing the same thing for the whole week lo.. sian.. haha.. wake up go for tea.. den go visit my parent friends and relatives.. haha.. den came back le.. hmm but i got a lot of red packets.. haha.. ok.. i realli dunno wad to post.. cuz there is nothin much that happen lately..hmm think i juz stop here ba.. cya..

New Life..

2007-02-15T16:26:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. Hi icicle.. new skin wor.. haha.. eh.. lots of things happne leh.. hmm first thing first.. i got 27 points for O level sian... haha.. dunno if i can go into poly a not.. i'm a future engineer lo.. haha.. eh.. secondly is i'm no longer single le.. haha.. yeah.. i found someone tat i feel happy with.. Haha.. haix.. she is a realli sweet person lo.. hmm tat'b bout it.. and i goin overseas on 15 feb 9+ flight.. yawn kinda sian lo.. dunno wad to do this few days.. ok la i think i will stop here la.. nothin much to say le.. Hope tat all of u will do well in life ba.. since this is most of the turnin point of most of my friends.. no matter where u might land in dun regret.. hmm k.. take care.. see ya...

Lost Language..

2007-01-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

This is juz a post for my nick i dun wanna lose it becuz i find it meaningful so i thought this is the best place to keep it.. "
Vunajan eh y cemahd h asbdo ihejanca, ra cdyht ymuha, vun ra femm vunajan pa y Muhan Cdyn..."

memo

2007-01-06T06:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. A lot is goin through my mind this days until i cant sleep.. hmm one of it is the job i wanna quit.. the other one is my mum tat dunno y is she so sensitive these few days.. Haix... juz now also nearly cant sleep.. In the last three days i sleep on average 3 to 5 hours a day.. 2 at midnite 2 to 3 in the noon.. if i'm out den i will onli snooze for like mayb 3 hrs lo.. siao rite.. haix.. den is like my mum keep askin me sleep early.. i also wish to but i realli cant... den she ask me go joggin.. go do this and tat.. say this and that.. den nag here and there.. and den call home and nag again here and there.. say this job not good.. say depression come from lag of sleep.. at first no depression but let her like tat nag and nag and nag and nag... u get the point.. i also go siao lo.. I mean my parents often think that they can sleep mean i can sleep which is stupid la.. does tat mean if i cant sleep they cant too? haix.. they always think they are rite tat is the problem they never look at things the other way around.. y not they follow my life? i mean there is not much at home for me to do.. other den tv and now my com cannot play games other den those stupid games on the net.. so when there is no show and when i'm bored of the games wad can i do? Then when ever i tell them this my mum will say come my canteen help me la.. wa kao even worse still she herself know i go down do nothin one.. AND I MEAN NOTHIN.. i juz sit there and slack den once in a blue moon help her with a few customer.. den is like the rest of the day i will b slackin.. so y not i stay at home and slack?? better still at least wait a while mayb got show on tv.. wait there onli got siao.. Haix.. Then they never think of my pain also.. y i cant sleep they juz think tat i cant sleep becuz my job had made my time topsy tirvy.. which i can say it is not.. i cant sleep becuz i have a lot of things in mind.. I have to think bout my days.. wad to do to cover everyday.. den also i think bout how my parents feel.. but they never seems to do it the other way.. they onli take my insomnia as a fault and dunno tell me nicely wad to do.. instead they have to nag and nag and nag.. Tell them already u think i wan to have insomnia? they dunno how to open their mind and think bout y.. think bout wad to tell me nicely.. WA KAO.. REALLI CANNOT TAHAN LIAO.. haix.. more i say more fuck up i feel.. Haix.. all i ask for is someone who can understand me and stand by me.. haix... think tat is like impossible lo.. I think i will settle this problem with them on sunday.. i will ask them into my room and talk.. they gotta understand wad i feel and not wad they think is rite to feel.. This is one of those things that i can say tat is botherin my sleep the rest i shall keep it in silence.. haha.. i think long enuf le.. cuz also no one come read and see de.. haha..

Work

2006-12-30T09:32:00.000+08:00

Yo.. Icicle.. so long never come le.. hmm.. not tat i have nothin to say but my com is so sucky.. anyway had so much in mind to say.. hmm Christmas has pass le now waitin for a new year to start afresh.. but there are things in mind tat cannot b afresh.. hmm.. Oh.. ya i'm workin at cathay now.. but almost everyone know liao.. haiz.. my blog now like ghost like tat liao.. No body no bout ur presense.. eh.. ya tot bout lots of things but cant say out here.. hmm juz hope tat my mind get sorted back soon.. oh.. ya gotta buy her a present.. T-T i'm kinda broke le.. haha.. but a promise is a promise.. regardless wad happens.. hmm.. ok den i think i stop here ba.. those long long long post are all in my mind liao.. shall not share this story.. hehe.. bb...

A TREAT

2006-10-14T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hi icicle.. YEAH!!!!!!!!! I GOT A TREAT FROM ONE OF MY FAV TEACHER!!!! MISS LOO!!! Today went back to do art.. finsih liao den helped her take photo.. den like so long lo.. haha.. den complaint to her i hungry.. den after the photoshot she treated us to ICIHIBAN SUSHI!! Had a enjoyable meal lo.. WOAH! i make sure i treat her back lo... HAHA... CHEEROS!!!!!!!!!!!

Life as it is..

2006-09-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

Stress level are goin high icicle.. haha.. a week or 2 later it is due for my art!! haha.. and eunice if u ever come back to see my blog this is for u "True i may b pityin myself.. I accept the fact, but it's always better to pity others.. cause it's sympathy and not empathy... I cant help it.. I have practically almost no body to turn to liao.. so I think talk to myself in the blog is wad i can onli do.." Dun worry.. u wont b black listed.. juz tat mind the kind of words u use.. b selective about it.. Cuz it may give pple the wrong sense.. or mayb u wanted me to felt tat way.. haha..

Haix.. life is normal i guess.. School... Home... Study... Sleep.. and occassionally play.. But seriously speakin it gets kinda bored.. haha.. Guess tat's all le ba.. Nite icicle...

Solem

2006-09-09T14:36:00.000+08:00

Hi icicle.. This is not goin to b any happy post.. this is a solem one.. Just days ago a great man die.. many dun know him in person yet he touched many heart with his strong spirit to save any animals in need and any man in need.. He is a good man.. Sadness and Anger filled me as i heard the news of my idol Steve Irwin who got his heart pierce by a sting ray's barb.. His brave nature.. His kind heart that warm ours even through that cold hard screen.. Though i have no ties with him i can not stop myself for havin the feelin to cry.. Yes he was a great father too.. A husband nevertheless and A one of the kind conservationist.. His death shock a lot of pple.. he is like a hero to everyone.. bravin death not onli once to help animals but still dyin in the hand of one which he done no harm to.. I feel his pain as the barb pierce his heart.. i feel the agony.. Yet i know he never blame anyone for the incident.. For he have to heart of gold.. He.. is Steve Irwin.. He may have departed us.. but his spirit leaves on.. His death will not b in vain.. He will b remember by millions around the world.. His death will motivate yet millions to conserve our planet.. I solemly bless him.. Rest in peace my hero.. Rest in peace......

Yes!

2006-09-07T04:10:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Hi icicle.. Nivarna man.. haha... i finally feel so much better liao.. haha.. everything is a thing of the past.. Not because things are solved but I thought through liao.. there is no point pondering over things tat doesn't does the other way around.. haha.. Eh.. This is something like ignorance la.. haha.. Life is good lo.. at least so far it is.. haha.. tot holiday will b sian but kinda fully packed haha.. eh.. also dunno wad to do today.. art.. or game.. haha.. cuz today free day.. like yesterday i did art and play.. today dunno wanna do a not leh.. mayb at night paste and write ba.. haha.. gotta start some where time to put words into action.. haha.. Eh.. Yup monday i had so much fun haha.. went to sakae at orchard there de had fun lo.. eat so much and get to celebrate sok wah bdae.. haha.. Guess this wont happen for me lo.. haha.. but seriously this year holidays for example.. Chinese New year which is not so bad.. And Vesak day? haha.. and the hungry ghost festival.. ya like when start and end i realli dunno.. unlike 2 to 3 years bak i would roughly know haha.. hmm guess this is it lo.. Too busy liao.. haha O lvl leh.. kinda scary but dunno y even scare also like hell care like tat lo.. haha.. Mayb no push ba.. Study.. is like alone la.. play now a days onli something not alone.. haha the rest of the time.. alone! haha... but still it's fine.. there are still people who are still here for me.. yah.. haha.. at least they realli bother to listen.. haha.. or mayb it's juz me ah.. haha.. wad ever it is life now is back to quite normal liao lo.. hmm.. ART.. ART.. ART! september muz do finish lo.. dunno whether got time a not still got so much things haven do unlike others like wanna finish liao lo.. sian.. haha.. eh.. hmm.. guess nothin much to write liao lo.. Hungry Hungry sia.. haha.. haven makan.. bb.. me go makan liao..

Friends?

2006-09-02T16:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Ya i do think i should put aside bgr.. seriously speakin what is the point of gettin a girlfriend when u know u cant settle urself to the person rite?

But this is life.. one problem goes away the other come by almost immediately.. Haix.. Friends.. That is the title.. I'm kinda bothered by bgr thingy.. mayb it got me paranoid but still i think life is changing.. it's time for me to move on to my own life.. like bgr.. friends are equally hard to handle, especially when u realli dunno who treat u as a friend.. Human mind are to complicated and sinster thoughts often flash pass everyone mind. Thus makin everyone untrustworthy, yet there are people that can help u in times of need.. Sorry I have to say this but I realli have stop trustin anyone since the recent incident.. I have doubts about everyone, I realli dunno wad the hack they are thinkin and i realli do not wan to know.. this is becuz it is too horrifying to think.. Juz hope that i can realli faster finish my Os get my result and see wad to do with my life and get to a new bunch of social circle.. Trust.. once betrayed u can never get it back.. so dun harm it.. Mayb it is juz me.. I have let down other people.. mayb this is karma.. I dunno.. but what ever it is I realli dun care already..

again

2006-08-25T11:52:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. this is not onli a cut... This feelin is like tearing urself apart inside out like the alien in "AVP" that tore out from the person's tummy.. those feelin.. i realli hate fellin in love.. cuz fear have overcome love.. FEAR! though it is onli two time i have a real set back.. but it is more then enuf, one who is now in a relationship... realli lovin her for 2 almost 3 years.. yet i cant do anything.. the other, the wrong person to fall for.. and now she is goin into a relationship.. i dare not say a thing.. for their happiness is mine.. at least i think so..

Seriously speakin this is hard shattering.. this realli make my mind fight between being single and findin a relationship.. cuz i believe tat relationship for me now is not goin to work.. firstly i do not wan to find a stead den cuz go out work liao or realli if go poly den break up.. this is not love den this is but using her as a yatch to step on.. Therefore i dun think it is gonna work.. Haix.. this feelin is horrible.. Love is suppose to b a very good thing but i dun find it so, I have the wrong feelin everytime for pple tat i find realli sweet. dun worry ying shan, yu shan and most of the rest of my friends dun worry not u all.. haha.. tat doesnt mean u all are not realli sweet, it's juz tat there is a special feelin la.. haha.. oh.. ya feelin that's right.. i kinda think my feelin goes a bit with the looks thus i think i am realli not in the right mind. Games.. this is becomin part of my life once a week.. haha.. computer nevertheless is also my life source for now.. which life is not tat bad.. but i keep on strugglin to find a stead this is becuz i realli cant take the pain anymore..

Some people are selfish aren't we.. we onli wan what's best in their life.. they had never spare a thought how the other one will feel.. ya he may seem happy, this is cuz he wants u to b happy.. he is actualli quietly cryin softly in his heart. Small cuts heal without scar.. Deep cuts leave a scar that one carry for life.. and the one deep cut in my heart is still bleedin... so how can i realli feel whether who i realli fall for...

Time

2006-08-20T09:03:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. Hmm.. guess u are the onli one i can realli complaint to.. at least i mean i can say wad i wanna say.. hmm... Went to clara blog heard the song.. alot of things flashes through my mind... It is realli bothering.. I dunno how i realli feel; happy? sad, or jealous, my guess is i'm juz simplily confuse to the max.. Love.. What the hell is that man, does lyin to urself that you dun like that person anymore Love? is sacrifice, Love?

Humans... Are too complicated, our mind often have a flow of numerous thought... Every second of a min... Seriously speakin how many understand ur friends.. i'm sure not more den one understand me more.. U can say u are my friend, but wad is a friend, what qualities do u look for in a friend, name one or two friends that you have. This was my oral topic, u all wanna know wad the hell i say, i will tell u a full version that is realli in my heart. I am lookin for something that people now a days are lack of or shall i say practically cant uphold.. trust.. i'm not sayin i can but I mean seriously people can never realli b trusted, you realli dunno when they will lie to u.. you never know when they are goin to backstab u so hard that u feel so hurt psycologically... friends.. this word is a word for laughter, it is a joke, how many of u realli treat each other as a friend, do u realli remember them, i guess not many do tat, when u need them they seem to live in ur life, but once u have a new group of friends u juz dump that person aside, den u will juz seems as if u have never knew that person... true i may not remember all my friends i may not always msg them.. but i swear i make the effort to at least think about them once in a while.. sometime even wonderin wad sms should i sent to the person.. juz because i have no topic and realli have nothin to msg that y i dun.. how many of u came across tat situation.. ask urself.. i'm not tryin to make any enemy i juz wan all of u to think bout all ur friends tat u have negeleted..

Seriously that is onli one of the thing that is bothering me.. the next is tat.. i feel so used.. come on when u bloody hell feel bored i regardless the hours, as long as i'm at home with my phone i will try my best to reply ur msg.. now u are back with him i juz disappear dun i.. Haix.. who cares.. who cares...

There is more, I and struggling.. stuggling to sort my heart out, i feel so confuse.. who do i realli have a interest in heart for.. I realli fear to tell that person i have fallen for her.. cuz our relation now seems to have drift apart.. I realli do not wan to bother her till she realli disapper in my life... I realli cant believe myself.. y did i went into relationship with eunice, i mean if i didnt fall into any relationship i would not understand love and would not desire for tat feelin of being loved by someone. Then i would all the way b single, wont tat b nice.. all alone.. Lonliness is another.. how many really know tat i realli feel lonely... I try my best to make all of u happy, cuz i think some of u accepted me into ur clique though it may not b always at least i feel glad, u know y.. cuz i can never stop feelin lonely, i may not seem as if i am, but to say i can leave my phone there for a whole week and i can assure u tat the amount of msg i will get is almost zero.. if there is it would b from an expected person.. Yet look at all ur phone.. leave it there for a week i think it would b flooded by miss call and msg.. tis is the difference in ur life and mine.. cuz i'm always the forgotten one... haix.. guess i shall stop here.. it is long enuf le.. i doubt anyone would even read it...

2006-08-19T21:43:00.000+08:00

life

2006-08-14T11:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Been so long since i update... Ok la.. at least now got a bit of things to write.. NDP.. hmm.. i was one of the trainer for the school parade lo.. den weeks ago i was trainin them lo.. hmm there was this some wad i guess cute gal in NP tat caught my eyes but nevertheless i was juz seeing haha.. nearly any-o-how fall for pple again.. haha.. mayb cuz of the thing tat made me despo again.. but i shall stay strong.. cuz my fear is stronger den the feelin of love.. Why? Cuz i guess it's hard to find someone you love and that the person feels the same.. Everyone think there are happy when they are together but once they break up it's as if it is the end of the world.. I asked myself y... Is it becuz of love? Hmm.. Partially it's true.. cuz you cherish that person. Despite tat it may as well becuz of ego.. u are not happy that he or she did this to u.. hmm.. is it wise to go pester and go for someone tat doesnt feel the same until they give in to u and stead with u.. that is not love... that is compromising.. Y? Cuz one side may b becuz he or she cant stand up to the psychological effect.. as they get affected by the need to have a stead too.. or it may b becuz he or she juz pity u.. so as they say love can slowly b nurture.. Ya rite.. Nur my head.. Feelings are strange things.. especially love.. it comes as it come.. there is no hiding it.. u may think it is a illusion.. ya most of the time this is true.. but sometime when u hit a target that u feel so rite.. it does not take time for the two to fall in love... eh.. i guess so.. this is my opinion la.. wad u wanna say is all ur prob la.. so dun comment on this haha...

Hmm.. Oh.. ya spec.. wanna see me wear.. i juz got a new spec.. haha.. eh... hmm ya me by the end of the year is goin for a style change.. so watch out...!

story...

2006-07-19T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hmm... icicle.. me still growing haha.. i know tat ok.. wanna know how i found out? haha.. i grown more mature in my mentality lo.. haha.. i know how to live life alone is better and u sure can enjoy more.. but that does not mean a girlfriend is not good but u juz have to wait for the right one to come by.. oh.. I'm writing story ya.. haha.. eh... love story ba.. i presume.. eh.. guess that's bout all lo.. life is good.. so not much complain.. juz tat i'm waiting for new blog skin lo.. den no more liao will write if i am too too bored and too much things on my mind k.. so bb den..

sick

2006-07-11T09:22:00.000+08:00

Yo icicle.. guess who's back.. mi.. of cuz.. was down with fever, flu, stiff shoulder, headache, hyper running nose.. cough.. muscle ache.. and many more.. but now ok le.. haha.. dun worry i wont die so easily.. eh... ya.. she admitted hospital liao.. i mean mummy.. eh.. hope she will b fine.. eh.. not my real mum ah.. u should know la.. anyway been sometime since i logged in haha.. cuz my grandparent come to singapore wad... but goin back the day after tomoro.. so after tat i should b quite free la.. or.. at least i think so... hmm.. i had grown mature in thinkin again... haha... not gonna say by how.. but i seriously enjoyin the time i have now.. haha.. so it's not as bad as it seems to b single ok.. haha.. kk i write till here ba.. dunno wad to write now wanna watch tv onli.. bb....

wad a post(find two letter back)

2006-06-27T13:44:00.000+08:00

Hey icicle.. floodin u again.. after so long finalli a proper post.. with proper amount of words.. haix ok let mi listen to song and write so can write with more feelin haha.. HAIX.. i think this is more den enuf to tell u how i feel.. Well shall i or shall i not ponder over it...? I will tell u all wad it is if u all can figure out this post.. dun come ask mi wad it is.. i swear i will not tell even if anyone of u threaten mi with friendship...

Ok tgcnna fwp ycpv vq hcnn kp nqxg cickp kv ku tgcnna vqtogpvkpi og.. ycf ku vjg rqkpv qh vgnnkpi aqw k nqxg aqw hqt vyq agctu... ucy ycf aqw ytqvg kp wt dnqi tgcnna fwppq ycf vq uca dqwv aqw... rgtjcru gxgp vgp agctu fqyp vjg tqcf aqw yknn uvkn pqv nppm dcem.. aqw mpqy vjgtg ycu vjku vjkpi aqw uckf vyq agctu ciq.. wt pcog ku gpitcxgf kp oa jgctv.. pqy ku kv uvknn gxgp vtwg.. rjcug nkmg vjcv ecp ngcxg c fggr uect..

Guess till here it shall b.. it's time for mi to sleep.. this is juz a short one.. no time and got life.. so cant write much.. bb..

day by day

2006-06-23T10:30:00.000+08:00

Today and the last two day is the same.. rot tot and rot.. i'm so bored lo.. haix.. dunno wad to do also.. no body ask mi out.. haha.. realli nothin to post la.. juz wanna say jie b careful next time dun sprain ur leg again.. and those who need help juz ring mi up.. mi free almost everyday.. ok i shall stop here i realli nothin to post till i meet up with something interesting den i will come back.. so till den..

juz another day

2006-06-16T15:40:00.000+08:00

Hi icicle.. today is but another day.. haha.. oh.. ya i learn how to fold paper crane leh.. haha.. hmm.. use it to jio gals.. haha.. psy... kiddin onli la.. so i folded 65 or so, but still in countin..

Paragraph.. k.. haha.. so this few days have been in town area expect for somedays.. spent a lot of money lo.. mi broke le.. haha.. eh.. realli nothin much to write lo.. hmm.. how bout how i feel this few days.. i feel i cant say.. cuz muz let everyone know tat i'm fine.. so no one is worried... mayb at most i can onli say is.. i prefer a to cook a meal tat take time and tat is nice den a meal which is instant.. eh... oh.. ya my hand got a few briuses.. got pinich again.. for not much of a reason.. eh.. can i not write in paragraph.. cuz i feel so awkward.. haha... sorry.. oh.. ya mi waitin for my new blog skin lo.. should b quite nice.. haha.. we shall all wait and see.. haha.. yawn.. sleepy.. haha...

oh.. ya i watch she's the man on last sat.. was quite nice lo.. eh.. amanda byne is as usual actin kinda stupid and funny.. but still pretty as ever.. haha.. eh.. the show is funni la.. but was kinda rush in the story line.. is like all the thing startin to cramp up bit by bit until it feel tat it's rushin through lo.. 5 stars.. i will give it a 3.. at most 3.5 for all the pretty lady in the show.. haha.. eh.. guess i stop here ba.. will b waitin for mi new blog skin.. bb.. nite..

shattered?

2006-06-08T14:55:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. wad is the feelin of death? cold? dark..? scary? wanna know wad is scarier.. a heart tat is shattered beyond anyones imagination.. this is life ba.. optimistic.. hahahHAHAHA!! none of u ever know how i feel. when i'm sad and i feel terrible is there anyone of u who is there to cheer mi up even if u are down.. i did my part.. but i got nothin to gain.. haix.. i dun wish to gain anything though.. this world is never fair.. it's never fair.. they say the good guys always get their fruit of labour.. mayb mine have not ripe yet.. once.. twice.. thrice.. so many time.. yet i try to and try and try again to stand up.. to sew my heart back.. but everytime it breaks apart i losses one piece.. i cant stand it any more.. lies.. lies and nothin but lies.. time.. time.. time.. tat is wad all of u say.. time will heal everything.. how long..? 1 year.. 2 years.. 3 or 10.. when is the time.. it's tearin mi apart.. time can also make thing more sentimental and deep.. juz like ruin.. the longer they date back the more worthy they are.. the longer the corpse die the more it decompose.. it doesnt means time will heal everything.. ruin does not become more grand.. neither does dead people become younger.. i'm speechless.. say mi despo.. say mi nuts.. i juz cant get it out of my mind.. shattered? yes it is so badly shattered.. there are so many people in this world.. there are so many country.. y muz i b in singapore.. y not japan.. y not new zeland.. y singapore.. true there are time i am realli happy i'm here.. cuz of the friends.. but at times this feelin in mi overwhelmed everything.. my friends.. my happy times here.. and those great people tat i met.. if i wasnt in singapore mayb all this things never happen.. aviod mi if u like.. i will wait.. i will wait if u ever aviod mi... hmm.. icicle guess wad song am i listenin now? yup.. an jing.. y? i think u should know y.. everytime when i feel down i turn to this song.. cuz it comfort mi.. it makes mi forget a bit more.. agony.. this word is powerful.. i think this is wad i can use to describe my feelin.. agony.. but i will always look happy and try to b happi.. cuz there are pple out there.. there are friends out there that i need to infect my happiness with.. hmm.. this is life.. i guess.. y does the devil or god or who ever it is wants to mess with my soul and my heart.. tell mi when do u wanna stop playin with mi.. mayb u should not cuz please dun stop.. torture my soul.. my heart.. if u muz.. cuz i dun wan u to torture anyone else.. cuz this is a feelin tat is so bad.. so bad tat u can never forget.. torture mi.. tat's enuf.. dun harm others.. i will take it as a retribution for my sins.. i guess i shall stop.. This tears will roll no more on my cheeks.. but it will forever drown my heart..

a day

2006-06-04T09:39:00.000+08:00

Today juz stayed home and rot.. hmm.. found nothin to do but play game lo.. haha.. hmm.. actualli nothin much to write.. but juz kinda had a lil flashback today.. lil it may seems but there was so many things happening.. i tot of the time when i was with her.. haha.. happi.. but troubled.. haha.. i tot of the time i go out with all my friends.. i tot of those tat betray mi.. haha.. friends..! wad is the definition.. there is a lot of things in this world tat cannot b answered.. so juz take tat i dunno wad is the definition of friends.. eh.. yup.. this holiday dun seems like holiday lo.. everyday got skool haha.. but also good la.. if not also no life.. haha.. nobody go out with mi lo.. poor mi.. everyone got their companion.. i solo lo.. most pple can go out at nite to watch movie to play.. i can onli stay home and rot like one kind.. go out also get nag.. dun go out also get nag.. see how bad can this b.. haha.. oh.. today upload song into my blog.. a nice one.. haha.. hmm yup nothin much to write lo.. cuz i cant spill the remainder feelins out.. haha.. k stop here ba.. bb icicle..

days..

2006-05-29T11:25:00.000+08:00

I'm back to post le.. hmm.. this year seems like a short year.. haha.. so soon it's gonin to b june le.. a few more exams.. and a few more days in skool.. and comes O's.. haha.. life for mi had been simple.. though not realli very very interestin and enjoyable.. but i made the best out of it.. i guess this is call growin up.. haha.. listen to songs.. play games.. laugh and joke.. haha.. quite fun.. as for love matters.. i guess i realli had let it go le.. happiness is a feelin i hope for all.. haha.. feels good lo.. haha.. oh.. ya.. advice to all.. life alone is not as bad as it seems.. but... if u r in a relationship good for u.. cuz all of us need someone close to care for u.. and for u to care for.. haha.. nothin much to tag.. haha.. oh.. last thursday i had a so call official Graduation ceremony for my NCC.. haha.. so many memories.. haha.. but still i can always go back if i want to.. haha.. this holiday hmm.. not much a holiday.. haha.. cuz almost everyday muz go back to skool haha.. do art.. and also study.. talkin about art i have tonnes of work not done yet.. also dunno can finish a not.. haha.. too many ideas too beautiful... but too little time.. haha.. Yawn.. so sian.. yup.. muz give prayers (though i am a free thinker) but still prayers to shareen.. hope she is well haha.. hmm.. guess i do have friends tat i didnt realli knew they took mi for.. haha.. unlike some tat i take as good friend.. tend to stab u so many times and yet u still forgive and care for the friend.. haha.. u all dun have to ask mi who cuz i wont say.. haha.. yup.. feel so hurt lo.. haha.. but still i will still treat the friend as one.. as he is not as bad as it seems.. haha... so i guess write till here ba.. haha.. nothin much to write le.. i will b back one day to post more k.. dun worry wont b too long.. haha.. Nite.. zZzZZzzZZ

SIAn

2006-05-24T12:23:00.001+08:00

hi.. hmm.. icicle.. few days didnt blog le.. haha.. nothin much to write though.. how bout we back track.. today.. in school play lo wad else.. haha.. den went to hougang mall saw so many people.. haha.. saw my god-mei also.. haha.. change a lot.. hmm.. ok.. that's today.. lo.. nothin much.. ystday and today went to keng hao house.. haven being hangin out for quite sometime le.. hmm.. realli hard to juggle myself between so many friends.. cuz muz go with this the other one say i pang sei.. go with the other one.. the den will also say the same things.. cant anyone understand my difficulty.. hmm.. ok lo.. the rest nothin much le.. quite tired.. sleepy to b exact.. oh.. ya.. there is something i tot of.. tat is some people tends to forget ur bloody presence once they are with those they love.. but they have never think tat when they are bored who was the one who try his best to find topic to chat.. who tries and tries to cheer them up? they juz tend to stop replyin ur msg.. dun chat to u.. den even visit ur blog to tag.. this is life i guess.. everyone is like this ba? mayb? i think i am one of them too.. haha.. hmm yup very bored lo.. goin to sleep soon.. nearly fall asleep in the bus.. haha.. kk.. nite nite.. i go load song den sleep le.. BLEAH!!

sian

2006-05-18T08:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTDAY SHAREEN.. though u can see but still happy birthday.. hmm.. realli mess up everything.. but.. hmm.. lets not talk about it.. mi nothin much to blog.. juz wanna wish my god-mum happy birthday and also hope tat eunice will b real happy being with him.. I may not be realli happy but.. i will b cuz my happiness is for other to b happy.. icicle.. u know my studies are gettin from bad to worse.. i dun think i can make it for O lvl.. let alone poly.. i'm realli runnin out of stamina and the motivation in life.. Hmm.. wad ever it is.. i will try.. FOR MY OWN SAKE!! CHEERS!!!!!!!!! i'm realli sleepy lo.. sian.. mi go play play le.. gotta go out later bb..

fumin

2006-05-09T15:20:00.000+08:00

ARGH!! F... F... U MAN.. icicle.. i wanna trash.. i'm burnin.. i'm hurt.. y do u have to do this to urself.. Y! love is blind? hey wake up.. this is too blind le.. layin finger on a female is already out of this world.. u still stand to him.. ARGH!! i realli have nothin to say le.. What authority do i have to talk.. U are never gonna listen to wad i say.. i dun mind if i can never b with u.. i juz wanna see u happi.. this is not happiness.. WAKE UP! PLEAE!! I BEG U!! find a better guy.. he does not deserve ur love.. sweet talk.. who also can do.. come on.. find other one that realli love u.. not juz say this and do that.. he never trusted u.. he love u? he will not slap u.. even if u drive a knife into him.. cheated on him.. anything u can think of a guy can never lay a finger on a female.. forget him.. please.. forget him.. if u wan mi out of ur life to forget him i will.. juz dun go back to him.. stay strong.. if u need someone to talk to i'm always here..

haix...

2006-05-07T11:55:00.000+08:00

Sigh... this is how i'm gonna start my post.. guess u should know y ba icicle.... it's all written on u.. pain.. sorrow.. and also eh... bit bit of tears.. haha.. tears.. wad are that.. an jing.. i never get tired of it.. cuz it realli reflected my life.. sort of.. hmm.. i know tat u knew.. but i had to put up a strong front.. cuz i never wanted to show myself.. u and all the other my weak side.. i may sound negative.. this is cause i'm still bleedin.. confidence.. at least now i stand up for myself.. anyway lets not talk bout tat.. so icicle.. i'm gonna complain again.. so do u think i should end my journey here.. cuz a end is but another start.. is it gonna realli stop hurtin once i end.. or will it start as a new journey for mi to regret to let go the older journey.. i realli hate complainin.. but i cant help it.. icicle.. althought she never turn back.. at least now i can see her shadow.. even it is a glimps i'm happi enuf.. i dun realli dun dare to hope for more.. cuz the scar is still bleedin.. u remember the video of an jing u once sent mi.. i still remember the most meaningful thing it once said.. let mi translate k.. hmm.. ok here it goes.. the god created man.. and from this man they took out a piece of their bone.. and thus god created female.. finally towards the end of the flash.. the guy said his chest slowly hurts more and more.. haha.. haiz.. y am i even sayin this.. numb? soon i guess.. hopefully soon.. cuz it still hurts so much.. sorry if i lie to anyone that i said i felt numb long ago.. this is because i had to cheer u all up.. u see when everyone is in love they become so happi.. writin at their msn nick. all those sweet sweet things... true it is realli very sweet.. but when they are hurt.. this sweet words change to word tat even hell fear of.. this is y when some ask when i am with that.. i do not wish to write the name but those smart enuf should know.. anyway.. i had never change my nick.. cuz i still feel lonely.. sweet talk.. haha.. i try not to do so much.. flirtin.. hmm.. how does a freak like mi even flirt.. haha.. so.. yup.. this two day have been a long long day.. seems like i am havin three sunday this week.. haix.. yesterday.. play at home.. den go out play.. today... pollin day.. parents at home.. like sunday like tat.. wanna go out early to play also got prob.. wanna play till late also cannot.. haix.. y.. y is it so.. move on.. time... how long.. another 1 year 2 years or 10 years.. it may never end.. retribution..? i dun believe in those... SORRY? is there a need to? i was never angry tat this happen to mi.. i was never blamin anyone.. so y sorry.. being hurt is juz something tat everyone go through rite.. i should b the one sayin sorry.. cuz even this is reality.. i juz cant let it go.. it's in my heart too long.. too long for mi to remove it.. if i have to it is another pain sensation for another few years.. so i rather tat i hidding at one corner helpin u when u need someone to cry on.. den rather b someone who walk beside u yet can never dare to look up to face u.. haix.. i know wad i write are all rubbish.. but hey i still have to dump my feelin some where.. this may sound horriblely negative.. but eh... it will onli b in the blog.. anway thanks for tellin mi how i should change my attitude.. i will try hard to change for my own.. but if i cant i will juz make do with wad i have.. it is realli a long way.. but i will try.. life get tougher and tougher as we get older.. but i will find way to face it.. to say... icicle.. i fall into a crush to easily.. but no matter wad it is i will still carry on.. this is life... wad dun kill u onli make u stronger.. and now i'm gettin stronger.. haha.. though my heart my race even typin this post.. but i did carry on.. haha.. this teaches mi one thing too... not being a singaporean doesnt make u any special.. cuz i have the singaporean accent le... haha.. stay here since i was little and young so guess no reason y i'm not almost a singaporean.. but is still funny to see the faces of others when i say i'm not born in singapore.. haha.. k i think i shall end here ba.. hey i will always b here if u need a shoulder to lean on.. to cry on.. or even bite.. pinch or beat on.. k.. haha.. though the day may never come.. but i will still wait.. dun ask mi y.. and dun tell mi to let go.. cuz i have made up my mind.. hope u dun aviod mi ba.. haha.. cuz i realli cant take those kind of shock.. haha.. frial hearted k. haha.. k.. nite nite.. sleep tight k.. sleep tight but comfortable k everyone.. nite... same to u icicle.. nite nite..

long long post again

2006-05-06T02:30:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. today sorry to day i'm gonna flood u with stupid feelings again.. but i know u wont mind.. u will never complain like all other do in their heart.. Icicle u know i find myself very very useless.. and i mean VERY u know y i wanna go tp.. yes true one is about the course.. but.. haiz.. no matter wad it has been more den a year.. they say time heals everything.. now for mi time onli make mi worse.. so badly confused.. lost and dunno wad to do.. i may have crushes on people.. but when ever i think again i tend to wanna forget about the crush and concentrate more on... you know.. haix... she definitely wont accept mi.. even if it is to woo her all over again.. this lifetime.. the next and the next i wont mind.. how she look.. fat.. old.. or which ever way u may think of i swear i will love her.. everytime juz thinkin bout her i feel like cryin but i never seem to b able to succeed.. my tears run dry in my eyes.. but in my heart it is continuously bleedin and cryin.. who can heal mi.. i believe no one can.. cuz my door is seal.. i have lost the key.. it is onli her tat will open it up but will it b.. 'ur name has been engrave in my heart' this phrase hmm.. lets not talk bout it.. i shall onli say my heart have nothin else in front of her le.. haha.. i swear i will tell this to who ever i am with.. i have made alot of promises.. and so did i broke as much.. but i realli dunno wad should i do.. puppy love? i guess not a year or two later i will b 18 and 3 after tat 21.. i know the feelin will still b the same.. cuz no one will ever set eyes on beast like mi.. who will wanna walk on the street with someone tat has almost zero fashion senses.. who will wan someone who look like a freak like mi.. WHO WILL? even there is my heart will still b seal.. cuz how many of them realli show mi the care.. tears tat i shed is onli for her... waitin.. is wad my instinct wan mi to do.. givin up is wad i am tryin to do.. haha.. a mixture of laughter and tears.. onli by playin and playin can i forget her.. studies.. have been droppin in standard.. gettin better? i dare not say.. i can onli lie.. u know y.. cuz i cant stop thinkin bout her.. every mornin i wake up i will find my hp.. y? to see if she did call mi and i fell asleep.. i dare not tell her or anyone.. cuz i am afraid.. afraid that she will b gone once again.. i get a undescrbable feelin when i see tat other say they love her more den mi? sure i never know.. but i'm sure two years is not short.. and there are more to come.. hey i know u will b readin this but i still have to tell u.. i realli love u.. my feelings had never change.. true my attitude does.. but my feelings and never change.. haiz.. what is the point u will never look back.. icicle.. u know i am so slow.. u know y.. she was able to recover and run forward so fast.. but i cant.. i'm still crippled.. pullin tryin to pull myself to b next to her.. but no matter how i try it never seems to work.. haiz.. i can onli hope.. tat one day she will turn back and walk with mi.. hope is all i got.. but dream is forever wad this will b.. wad was first a crush.. den a puppy love.. have turn into something tat i can describe tat is onli in mi... every where i go i wanna look out.. to see if i can see her by any chance but i never was able to.. that is y i aim every single course tat i can to get to tp. juz to see her.. true by then she is year 2.. but i hope i can see her.. as for the dream.. this is not disney land.. this is reality.. dreams never do come true.. hope is wad people hold on to.. to work towards there goal.. and not dream.. my goal.. is to work in the onli 7 star hotel in the world... my dream.. to b with u again.. but i know it is never goin to happen.. if it does gonna happen tell mi.. even till i am old.. or even if i am dying.. cuz i will for u will my lie in my death bed.. if it is to wait i will.. cuz i know i will onli love u truely... waitin is all i have.. it is all i ever had.. mayb for mi my love have never come yet.. but i will wait...onli to hope it is u.. if it is not i can onli hope it is a happy one..

thingys

2006-05-04T05:21:00.000+08:00

hi icicle.. long time never write le.. haix.. i'm confuse.. i'm lost and i cant tell u y.. anyway i saw this love story on net.. it was so eh.. sad ba.. haha there was this guy.. eh.. forgotten his name le.. but lets call him ken.. k then the gal i think have almost the same name as u.. she is call ice.. ya.. so is like this the two was a lovin couple.. but some reason or another the guy had to let her go.. haha.. den is like he regretted lo.. haha.. poor him juz like mi become loner.. as for the ice she found another happiness.. so this ken guy he eh... wad happen to him.. oh.. he tried to find himself a happiness too.. but he juz could not forget the ice lo... haha.. den he is realli battered by the fact that he cannot find the kind of love and happiness he had in the past with ice.. haha.. den finalli he found one that he had a strong feelin with but the gal.. eh.. to say lo i dun realli understand but i think the gal did not have much or no interest in him.. he was sad sad lo wad else.. haha.. den the story ended sayin something like " love is like a important organ in our body.. once we missed it or let our love go it will never grow back.." ya something like tat lo.. haha.. anyway today also dunno wad to do.. exam period liao... so sian lo.. haha so eh.. i guess i go play maple lo.. until time to study den go out..

sick

2006-04-21T10:24:00.000+08:00

Sobx i am sick... and nobody realli knows it.. got one which is my god mum.. but also like nothin juz say take care.. SOBX... I"M SICK FOR GOD SAKE!! CANT ANYONE SHOW MORE LOVE TO MI? haha but idun wan anyone.. i onli wan one person to call and chat with mi.. i confirm will feel better de.. haha.. sobx.. I got runnin nose.. fever.. SERIOUSLY PAINFUL backache.. and finalli a brain damage.. cuz i thinkin bout something.. den is like eh.. i found the letters.. tat was written in the past.. haha.. eh.. yup.. nothin lo.. oh.. today world record.. in my entire school life this is the first time i am so ill tat i went home once the first lesson started.. AHHH.. AH... AH... CHEW!!!! sorry.. ok la.. this sicky wanna go lie down liao... my backache is killin mi..

stary

2006-04-19T13:40:00.000+08:00

hello icicle.. finally somethings to write.. i started mapling.. ok lo.. to burn off time.. note archer is hard to train.. warrior... easy like one kind but late game i dunno la.. haha.. today got 2 stranger in maple so kind lo.. help mi do quest and also help mi leech.. haha.. anyway.. a lot on my mind lately... they say i not loner.. how am i not one.. some people tat i mingle with the most dun even remember my presence.. those tat i dun mingle with a lot now tend to b those tat talk to mi.. life is so strange rite.. like mi often feel tat i'm being forgotten.. even some says.. u will never b forgotten.. haha.. ya rite.. i'm not forgotten.. juz misplace some wher far behind the mind almost to the dumpster.. i try to remember everyone.. seriously i mean everyone.. once in a while i will scroll down my phone book to see who i have to contact a long time.. i will juz pop a msg over sayin hi.. but how many does tat to mi.. haha... when i ask y never msg mi.. they will say busy la.. no time.. not free.. tired.. any kind u can think of.. ya true as a friend u muz understand they have difficulty msgin you.. but had anyone considered how i lazy i am.. how occupied i can make myself to b...? no one knows.. i find time for others but none find time for mi.. i dun mind spendin money to play with those tat goes out with mi.. those tat are willin to play with mi.. even though some may b backstabbers.. but i close my eyes to it.. icicle you know y.. cuz y would i wan enemies.. rite. when being isolated is bad enough.. no one know tat i feel tat.. everyday in class i cant sit til everyone is sitted.. you know y.. cuz everyone have their own partner.. i dun.. i have i find a empty sit and ask if i may sit.. cuz if i sit down the first thing i get into class.. this will happen " hey i sit here one.." and "oie i sit with this person this person one.." worse come to worse " go away leh.." wad can i do.. get push around lo.. like lil boy like tat.. yes i have to admit i do tend to forget about others feelin.. but how many know how i feel? i can say is none.. friends.. how many are trustworthy.. how many are loyal.. how many really treat you for who u r.. how many are not backstabbers..? NONE.. we are born to act... as we need to cover up this flaws we humans have.. I backstabbed others too because to b in a clique.. but now i learnt not to.. cuz it makes mi sick.. i rather keep a distance.. and issolate myself... juz like seein her face make mi sick let alone sayin or mentionin her name.. yucks.. icicle you know wad is even more humourous.. tat is some say got hate will have love... ya true not war where come peace? If there is no war the word peace won't even exsist.. same for love and hate.. but... for her is juz tat i'm utterly disgusted by wad she do.. everything for her voice down to her attitude.. (dun worry eunice it is not u..) Further more some even say i still care for her.. i still have feelin for her.. erm... typin this out i had already took the risk of havin my CPU explodin... feelings.. haha.. redicilous.. LOVE this feelin i had long gone kept it stored.. so how can i like her.. when i have the same feelin toward her like the guy tat i know i will hate my whole entire life... so u tryin to say this guy i hate i love him too? haha... some even says it is different becuz she is ur "wadwadwad" before... ya tat guy i took him as a friend before.. also feelin wad.. ya true can still say is different.. cuz this is wad they think.. y cant they put themselves into my shoe? I hate being stared down cuz i said some slightly crude comment.. and yet today i got it.. further more.. stack up rite to it directly is some one sayin i talk too much.. ya i onli said "you actualli went to eat that stall with food tat if almost in edible.." in chinese " nii gan chi na bu shi ren chi de na tan" and follow by RESPECT cuz u can never believe by juz lookin how in apitizin the food is.. so by sayin that i got stared down.. which already burnin my fuse.. den came out this phrase.. " u talk too much" which was in those F up tone.. i nearly man nearly erupted.. ok enuf of this stupid stuffs.. today went to HWA (Handicap Welfare Association) it was realli an experience.. some how felt the pain of those handicap tat was due to some accident.. i realli cant imagin tat wad if i cant feel my legs or hands.. or even the whole body.. haha.. den Hadi did this realli darin twinkle twinkle little star dance haha.. i can see it realli brighten tat uncle tat we were talkin to.. haha.. k write till here ba.. very long le.. hmmm.. wonder who will even bother to finish readin this long long long... winded and borin essay.. haha...

1 years old

2006-03-31T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.. there is something that i forgot.. 11 days ago it was 19 march.. nothin special huh.. *(Saturday, March 19, 2005) this day was when my blog was born.. i cant believe one year juz flew pass like tat.. and that i'm still usin blog.. one year is not very long huh.. it took mi a year to almost onli almost forget about being back with her.. it tool mi one year to drop to 4n.. it took mi one year to see the true world.. so many things happen in one year.. i know there are even more peeps out there with blogs older den mine.. but this blog of mine contain all my feelings.. all tat happen to mi.. Now i learnt something new.. I re-learnt how to b a loner again.. This feels good.. i guess.. cuz u have all the time in the world for urself.. haha.. A friendship is like a boy/girl relationship.. let it go if u love that person.. if he or she comes back to you it is meant to b.. if they dont.. it was never to b started.. trust is wad is needed.. now i'm learnin to let go my friends.. all of them.. if they are trueful they will come to mi.. and not wait for mi to go to them.. some says it is ur initiative.. ya it's MINE.. wad if i repeat the same thing to u.. it's ur initiative.. so why no u who come find mi.. It take to hand to clap.. i have been chargin to clap the other hand too much.. now i guess i should juz wait.. haha.. ok la.. write till here ba.. realli dunno wad to write le.. Final word of advice.. "Trust those tat trust you... BUT most importantly is to trust urself more den anyone else.."

life...?

2006-03-26T16:57:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. guess nothin to.. went to clara jie blog... saw she wrote a flash back of secondary life.. hmm.. made it seems so short.. so let mi write my flash back too.. all the way to wad i did today k.. haha... So.. it's like mine go all the way back to when i am a kid.. haha.. so carefree.. those were the days wher people are healthy.. we dun lazy at home and stare into computer screen or go out and play lan.. we always play catchin.. fun rite.. tat was actualli enjoyable.. haha... den primary schooll still the same times still didnt change much.. at least for mi.. till primary 5 when i am in a new school everything change.. haha.. life is like as mention.. play lan.. play arcade.. all the way till today.. no life rite.. so anyway.. study.. study study.. wasnt realli interestin.. cuz i was a low profile person.. i often pester the dentist auntie and the library auntie also.. haha.. den.. up to secondary school lo.. wad else rite.. still low profile.. like as if nobody know mi like tat haha.. not like most their life is so colourful.. haha.. this 4 years.. if plus this year 5 i learn a lot of things.. things tat in one day u can never experience.. sec 1 i learn how to enjoy life.. cuz happi go lucky wad rite.. so dun care lo.. actualli up till now still the same same la.. haha.. sec 2 hmm.. learnt wad is friendship.. it is something tat cannot b measured usin time.. even now also still addin knowledge to this advice.. den sec 3.. haha i learn hell lot of things.. haha.. i learn wad is puppy love.. i learn wad is pain.. i learn wad is loneliness.. i learn wad is numbness in the heart tat cuz u to feel nothin.. i learnt how to b someone tat do not show my real emotion.. i learn wad is the cause of not studyin.. den sec 4 haha.. not too far away huh.. i learn tat sudden impulsion can lead to emotional.. and mental blindness.. and when u wake up from it.. it's too late.. haha.. eh.. yup.. den i learn to study.. i learnt and wished to b alone.. but didn't realli succeed.. den come to this year.. not long onli.. but i learn wad is issolation.. i learnt wad is to rather keep things in my heart.. i lost hope.. i lost my mind.. i now am so engrossed in my art piece.. tat is to b alone.. tat is to b issolated.. and i learnt when u know something is impossible and u try to find hope.. which in the end u can't.. wad u do.. lie to ur self.. lie tat it was a dream.. wad ever it is.. good or bad.. which all turn up bad la.. haha... so lie to urself.. but warn u it's like cuttin ur heart into piece inside out.. haha.. unless ur heart is as good as dead.. pls dun try this dreamin method cuz.. who can realli forget.. in our sub-conscious mind we have a memory.. a memory tat we store from the day we are born.. juz tat onli a day when u die this memory will flash.. haha.. yup long rite bet none of u can finish readin this haha.. who will..?? haha.. k ba stop here la... if not can write essay le... haha...

juz another day..

2006-03-23T09:18:00.000+08:00

hi icicle.. guess now is onli you and mi.. haha.. today.. is juz another day.. another keng hei.. haha.. nothin much realli happen lo... dunno whether later goin play a not.. realli very sian lo.. haiz.. i guess i made guo feng realli unhappi... cuz i didnt accompany him this few days as he asked mi out.. but i realli dun feel like it.. cuz this few days i not in the rite mind.. (to guo feng: if you ever come to my blog i juz wanna say sorry... cuz i realli dun not in good mood..) icicle.. i'm realli bored.. oh ya anyway jie.. please dun feel awkward talkin to mi.. k.. haha.. eh.. yup haha.. hope tat today you realli feel better.. haha.. if you realli feel upset bout something my phone is always funtional.. haha... ok i guess i write till here ba.. i wan go listen tian hei liao haha...

confuse

2006-03-22T11:00:00.000+08:00

Confused.. blurred and all sorts of feelin.. icicle.. i'm tired... real tired of livin.. i'm totally confuse... this holiday dun feel like holiday.. now still got tons of work to do.. can i juz break my arms and legs.. so i can b in the hospital... so at least like tat i know who will come see mi... haiz.. dunno wad to write le... i'm juz so confused...

yawn

2006-03-09T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hi icicle.. yawn.. can barely keep my eyes open liao.. dunno wad to write leh.. not much event la.. same old lo.. so sian.. go school study come home stare into space or com.. haha.. no life man.. haha.. eh.. yup.. this year quite stress homework like tissue paper like tat.. one whole roll sia.. keep on stain with shit.. which is all the ink.. haha.. ya life now a lot more relax dun have her on my mind liao.. why love some one who dun love u.. haha.. rite.. so love those who do love mi.. haha... k write till here ba.. anyway clara cheer up.. i'm always here.. haha...

lost

2006-03-04T11:19:00.000+08:00

SOME FREAKIN ASS STOLE MY BLOODY PHONE.. CURSE HIM/HER.. TILL THE HAND TO THE WHOLE BODY ROT INSIDE OUT... OK i guess tat's all the rest i tell u tomoro k.. bye icicle

dead

2006-03-01T13:38:00.000+08:00

Icicle.. keng hei's heart stopped.. from this moment onwards his heart stopped.. keng hei is but a past memory.. time to move on they say.. can a dead corpse move on.. what is love.. it is something tat realli makes my life a misery... i wanna b single.. i wanna find a place where i can b all alone.. icicle.. this may be the end of keng hei.. as his heart had finally beat it's very last...

2006-02-24T14:02:00.000+08:00

WHERE ARE YOU!!!

i realli miss u where are you.. i cant see u in friendster i cant see u anywhere are u aviodin mi.. why are u doin this to mi.. u love it is it.. haiz life of mine is one big hole.. i realli no mood to write anything le.. nite icicle

wad a life

2006-02-23T14:59:00.000+08:00

Hi icicle life is such a mystery liao.. cuz I dunno why I keep studyin.. anyway life goes on lo.. even got dunno who come tag I also dun care.. cuz it my life and not ur's.. understand... anyway thank Jan.. realli appreciate it.. ok lah this few days.. juz tat my temper gettin shorter and shorter.. SO TO PEEPS OUT THERE DUN MEDDLE WITH MY TEMPER... anyway i realli like the way i'm now studying and revisin my work.. good to go out with a gang tat i can work with.. rather den to listen them talk so much.. we make jokes while we work.. ya icicle i gotta thank my jie wait ah..
JIE THANKS FOR EVERYTHING REALLI I MEAN IT (to all my jie.. ya even u my real one)
Ya so icicle i realli think tat life is to good to waste le.. y waste on those who dun care..why waste on those that onli take mi as a passerby.. rite i rather spend all my time devotin them to those tat realli care.. ANYWAY EUNICE.. i had never lie bout lovin u since the day i said i love u... 1 year plus liao going 2 years liao tat my love for u still runs in mi.. they say it's puppy love.. but how can a puppy love last so long?? who cares.. all i know is i will wait...

ARGH

2006-02-22T08:33:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE HELL ALL OF U KNOW.. U ALL KNOW NOTHIN.. SO SHUT UP.. i like the kind of life i'm leadin... jie(not u clara) i know u got come and see but sorri this is mi.. so dun even think of askin mi to change... AND TO NOTHIN TO DO.. I DUNNO WHO ARE U BUT THOSE THINGS ARE NOT WAD U THINK U HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY.. I DUN CARE WHETHER U KNOW MI OR I KNOW U.. BUT WAD THE HELL U HAVE IN UR MIND TO JUDGE MI LIKE TAT.. WAN ACT BLOG JUMPER ALSO ACT PROPERLY LA.. COME ON U THINK I THREE YEARS OLD HUH.. EVER SINCE THIS BLOG STARTED NO BLOG JUMPER LANDED HERE.. U SO LUCKI AH.. STILL SO FREE RIGHT.. U WAN LIE TO WHO... SO TELL THIS LIE TO 3 YEARS OLD KID LA HOR.. SEC 5 SO WAD SOME PEOPLE EVEN TILL OLD AGE STILL CANT SOBBER.. SO WAD A SEC 5.. COME ON U EMOTIONLESS FREAK.. I LOVE WHO I WAN U LOVE WHO U WAN... I DUN WAN TO CARE BOUT PEOPLE.. LA HOR.. ANYWAY U DUN THINK I DUNNO WHO U LA HOR... U MY CLASS ONE STILL DARE SAY THIS KIND OF FREAKIN THING... TELL U IF U EVER COME BACK TO MY BLOODY BLOG TO TAG BLOODY THING I MAKE SURE I WILL SCREAM UR HEAD OFF IN FRONT OF U AND NOT AT THE BLOG!! U HEAR!!

PASIR RIS

2006-02-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

HI hi Icicle.. haha guess u should go see Clara's blog to know wad we did on saturday haha.. it's like so much fun haha... hmm.. u know she is back haha.. yes she is back to tag realli told her how i felt.. hmm dunno y lo my mind is confuse.. is my life gettin any better?? i guess not realli.. thinkin and thinkin about her everyday u know.. Icicle life is such a weird thing huh!! haha.. u know wad tat day we play kite i learn about something.. tat is it is time to let go let it go it will fly higher but time to time you got to learn to nudge it.. hmm.. meaningful rite.. haha.. dunno how to live with my life now.. so sian lo.. realli haiz.. her.. eh... icicle to love someone is forever easy for mi but to b love is never the case.. looks is this wad people look for... life is juz a dream.. when u wake up from it, it seems like nothin actualli happenin.. Icicle wanna hear my story.. i made up one.. very short.. almost like a phrase.. Actualli the angel made a pact with the devil.. tat is if there is true love between each other the angel will forever bless them.. but if it happens to b a one side love the devil shall devour the soul of the one who is in love.. and i think i am being devoured.. haha.. this is the pact with the devil.. that the angel has loss.. haiz.. ok den write till here ba.. kena nagged to go sleep liao cuz tomoro still got school.. bye icicle

past

2006-02-19T15:09:00.000+08:00

HI ICICLE!! hmm.. today when to out with jie and mum again haha.. great lo lots of fun haha.. eh.. ya went to pasir ris but actualli wanted to go east coast the but we think by the time reach there too late liao.. anyway had lots of fun lo.. we had a small picnic.. haha eatin chips and chattin den we played poker cards haha.. blackjack and also bluff haha so fun lo.. den after tat when the tides went down it was so great.. i splash both of them wet haha.. den i in the end let them have the chance to splash mi wet haha.. anyway gotta say sorry to u jie cuz made some sand hit on to u... haiz.. anway after tat we were all like dripin haha.. den the wind was like so strong haha.. i was like freezing haha... finalli we went to play kite haha.. see other peeps kite fly so high but ours' like so low lo haha... den jie was like runnin here and there tryin to make the kite fly.. haha.. so fun.. oh.. nearly forget we also saw dayang, fitri the group of friends all of them campin haha.. den after playin kite we walk to find food eat haha.. ate 2 things.. and definitely with rice for mi, as for mummy she ate beef kuay tiao.. haha.. den lots of the two thing is kang kong and BBQ stingray haha.. it tasted like otha.. haha.. den we went home liao haha... had so much fun lo haha.. eh.. ya juz now went to see something at jie's blog.. it was some project the 4eC did haix.. realli miss my sec 1 and 2 years all the fun we actualli had together.. we were the terror man haha.. yet we were always united.. but now i guess onli jie realli remembers mi others haha.. forget bout it.. but mayb cuz i keep pestering jie tat's y she remember's mi haha.. if not i guess she will also live her own life.. haiz.. the good old days.. realli miss it.. ok la icicle write till here ba.. if not u will b flooded liao.. k nite

hihi

2006-02-18T15:01:00.000+08:00

Hi Icicle.. miss mi? haha i know u miss mi a lot.. haha.. hmm.. dunno whether had u know who turn up at my blog.. my guess nope tat person didnt cuz never tag u haha.. hmm today i became superman flyin here and there.. haha.. first as usual to school haha.. den after school rush home and change den fly out to go plaza lo.. so sian today play dota until like rushin for life like tat.. play until so not shiok.. haha anyway den dart to K-box.. so sian lo... nearly fell asleep lo... yawn now still sleepy.. den follow by punggol end.. all in 5-7 hr time i have to go this places.. haha.. eh... ya today actualli dreamt of her again.. is it a good sign or bad i realli dunno.. but all i know is today i write till here only cuz mi very sleepy le.. sorry icicle.. k... nite...

siao liao

2006-02-17T08:40:00.000+08:00

Hi bloggie.. I'm back.. This few days I wrote a lot of things huh! dunno wad happen to mi.. Rarely write so long but this few days keep writing and writing, even though nothin much happen.. eh... mayb it's cuz of my mind ba.. lots of things goin on inside.. haha keep thinkin of someone and somethings.. anyway hi everyone this is my new friend bloggie, I still thinkin of a name for him u all wait k.. eh.. yup this few days lot of things in mind.. hmm.. today I dreamt about something it's like the thing I can never hope for.. haha.. wanna know wad is it a not bloggie.. I dreamt about her u know her... ya it's so great man... but kinda thing of it, it is quite dumb.. y think of someone tat will not b mine anymore until dream of her rite.. hmm.. today I loaded with cash man I didnt even know till I think back.. cuz in the mornin tool cab then come home take cab.. today had two meals.. and also return the book shop auntie money.. wa sounds like a lot spend huh!! Realli happy with my life.. juz tat sometimes feel empty lo.. haha... guess I did not fulfill my wish.. that is if I marry I will wan to marry to onli my first love.. guess it's impossible huh!! who will wan a freak like mi tat onli have a ambition to become a chef.. haha... penniless job rite.. haha but who realli cares.. I know there are only a few peeps who realli care and they can be counted with my two hands.. haha.. gotta study so much things sia... today record breakin i didnt sleep in class haha.. pro rite.. haha.. k la guess i write till here ba.. take care everyone..

valentine

2006-02-16T08:04:00.000+08:00

hi bloggie.. hmm realli dunno wad to write juz tat yesterday i had spend the whole nite chattin at some play ground with my god mum and jie.. i realli dunno wad to say.. life now is such a mess.. onli feel like sleepin.. waoh i didnt realli know sleepin in class can be so shiok.. eh.. yup kinda dunno wad the hell is happening to mi lo.. cuz i keep thinkin bout one person.. but i'm not goin to tell who it is.. IT FOR MI TO KNOW AND FOR U TO NEVER FIND OUT!! ya.. everytime pass by compass point which is near someone house i realli hope to see her.. but i know impossible de... haiz.. it a past mistake tat i have done to anger and hurt her i guess.. but i realli hope tat one day we will b back together even it is to woo her all over again.. love is something so strange huh!! DUMBGAL i realli hope u will b my one again.. haizz.. who am i kiddin rite bloggie.. i know she wont come back to mi de.. she dun even bother to msg mi... dunno wad happen to her life but i realli wanna know.. i realli wanna care... cuz i realli wanna love.. haiz... bloggie u tell mi isn't this juz plain stupid right.. lovin someone tat will never b ur's.. haha.. bloggie u know it's realli hard realli very hard to put up a strong front.. when ur hearts realli hurt and u cant get any tears out it's realli terrible.. haiz.. all the tears does is well up in my eyes.. i realli dunno y.. dumbgal... WHY!! juz a msg or even a call for u will brighten my path but i guess it's impossible.. IMPOSSIBLE!! Dumbgal i realli dunno wad happen to u but seein ur friendster my guess is u and him.. eh.. anyway i will wait till one day u will accept mi again... i will wait...

LIFE goes on

2006-02-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

Hi.. this post mostly is juz to tell someone something.. To this somebody.. in this world there are two types of sayin of a friend and both have different meanin and also reflect different personallity.. the first kind of this friends are those tat u keep in the heart, u dun have to meet nor chat.. juz have to keep it in ur heart.. the second type of friends, regardless of any hardship, or problems juz wanna try to know how the other friend is doing.. worry for him/her.. care and concern about him/her.. i guess u catagories in the first type.. u know i try and try to contact u... i tried and tried to find u.. juz to see how u r doin, i dun need u to know my presences, i juz wanna know how r u.. but i guess u didn't realli make an effort to drop mi one simple msg.. but i dun realli mind.. cuz i know u have ur problems.. i know u have ur hardship.. I'm not tryin to b sarcastic, realli i dun.. 1 year all i wish was u to b mine.. tears had long gone run dry.. love had long gone died.. Haix.. wad the hack.. Juz hope tat u realli study well.. dun worry even this grade not good go for private Os or something like tat.. I believe in u, i realli do.. i know u can.. u see ur math so bad can become so good le.. i know u can de.. So muz u believe in urself.. I believe one day i can see u again.. and i guess i can onli hope and nothin more but hope tat u will come back to mi some day.. LOL i know it will never happen.. it.. will never happen.....

sux

2006-02-09T13:58:00.000+08:00

Life now a day kills mayb cuz i not enough rest... since clara gone overseas tat day start liao.. monday keep banging into people some more is those kind ah beng ah beng one but nothin much happen liao.. yesterday nearly got into a fight with kim seng ( i think this is how u spell his name) anyway dun wan talk bout it.. cuz i find he very unreasonable.. although i admit i partially wrong.. but who cares... den today i finally argue with a teacher again.. i think i gettin more and more grumpy day by day gotta get appointment with my bed soon if not will go mad.. k write till here ba.. haiz tomoro still got my formal letter to finish in any free period and by tomoro all the free writin.. i think continue like tat i will have fear of english liao..

2006-02-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

Happi trip to u jie.. hope u will enjoy ur self k... NiTe NIte everyone

life

2006-02-06T13:55:00.000+08:00

hi everyone.. back to update my blog.. got new song liao.. eh... time flys... few more day pple takin O level result le hope all of u can pass.. hehe.. and with flyin colour.. hope that one day i will see her again... eh... yawn nothin much to write lo... haha... juz tat i watch 3 movie this week.. now left onli fearless haven watch.. yawn k mi stop here le cuz dunno wad to write le.. nite everyone... nite nite bloggie...

2006-02-01T11:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CLARA.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U... happi birthday jie hope tat all ur wishes comes true and the life of ur's is always as colourful.. yup.. tomoro back to school le.. this year not much money.. onli 120 dollars and tat is around 20 over packets before i get tis amount eh... ***sian sian*** cuz tomoro goin school.. i guess i am goin to bastard KFC liao.. goin to sabotage.. cuz realli very tired lo.. realli feel so lonely at times.. haiz... so hope tat everyone out there have enjoy the good food and snacks...AND ONCE AGAIN HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA

2006-01-29T09:14:00.000+08:00

Today i havin reunion dinner.. yawn... so sleepy... yesterday i had so much fun goin out with clara they all... I realli like goin out with shareen and clara cuz they realli brighten my day... and they realli care for mi.. thanks alot.. hmm.. had so much fun we were laughin all the way.. haha... so i guess write till here ba cuz nothin to write le.. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE

2006-01-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPI CHINESE NEW YEAR
hi everyone new year is comin so is my god sis clara birthday.. and i wish u a early birthday k.. hmm... mi this few days very tired lo nothin to do... sleepy also.. and is very sleepy... yawn... hmm i may b leavin my blog alone till i get a good rest i say may.. but even i dun write also no one see who cares rite.. one day also wanna find time go find her.. at tampinese mall yawn yawn ok la type till here mi nothin to type le.. nite...

SIan

2006-01-23T13:40:00.000+08:00

hi everyone today got a lil more to write cuz thursday i went to temasek poly saw a course i'm interested in.. aimin there.. haiz.. after that went to tampanise mall the SnK for some reason but didnt get to hit the purpose.. haiz sad.. anyway.. mi so so tired.. mi no time to even stop to catch a breath everyday homework den work den almost no time to sleep lo.. keep thinkin bout things.. i finally know wad is love almost is like.. Love is not to gain possession.. to love is not to make yourself happy but to know that you make the one who love happy.. knowin that she is happi you will eventually.. i guess eventualli u will b happi for her one day..
I'M THE LONER... THE ONLY ONE THAT IS LEFT BEHIND... THE ONE WHO HOPE TO CATCH UP...

YAWN YAWN

2006-01-18T13:00:00.000+08:00

YAWN YAWN so sian lo today normal until like one kind haiz sian... go school come home sleep den now bloggin listen song den doin homework soon.. hmm nothin interestin really happen... no one came to brighten my day... so sian...!! ok ba write till here le.. go do homework...

2006-01-14T15:13:00.000+08:00

Fine day i should say it is quite ok.. anyway friday the thirteen found it's way to mi today.. i lost my cash man haha.. nvm.. anyway today not much lo.. juz went ncc talk cock play around den nothin liao bored lo haha.. k i think since nothin to day hope everyone enjoy their nite...
I KNOW I LOOK FREAKISH!!! WHO WILL WAN MI...

Normal day

2006-01-12T14:44:00.000+08:00

today quite normal.. came home when out study at keng hao house but didnt last long.. see him play game.. anyway one thing brighten mi that is eunice tagged for mi.. haix i think today write till here nothin much to write le.. nite nite

TEH SUSU

2006-01-11T15:59:00.000+08:00

today is fun fun fun...!! haha mi shareen and clara went out and walk walk shop shop.. den took neoprints.. she keep takin the same design i took haha.. she got pissed of.. haha.. alot of fun we ate and sat at HANS when shareen was learnin locus.. eh.. den finally the bus trip like wad clara said it was teh susu.. haha.. i saw this two couple doin some explict things.. haha.. i told the two of them and we were like laughin al the way haha.. so much fun and today took so much photo... k write till here wanna sleep liao..

Unbelievable

2006-01-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone it's almost one year i'm usin blog cant belive that after march it is one year i tot it was not gonna last long who knows it actualli worked out quite good.. haiz.. life kinda hard for mi.. i realli cant stop thinkin bout her.. anyway post something for mi pls... PLZ... TAG FOR MI... yawn it's so bored.. life is really good being single play all i wan.. oh.. anyway this blog very special special point is the meanin of the words haix.. really reflect my life.. haha hmm dunno wad to write juz happy birthday wee shen eh.. yawn Boring sia.. hope that someone will view my blog

2006-01-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

One Day I WiLL learn

2006-01-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

Haha tell u all one day i gonna learn how to put her down it's juz time i need a someone i have a special kind of feelin with.. yawn so tried i may b changin skin soon haha.. k nite everyone dun wee wee on the bed k... muz wake up go pee pee...

Continue of yesterday story

2005-12-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

Haha yesterday really damn funny after we took the eagles award we went to hougang mall to eat lo it's like had a lot of fun eatin.. den we went to Wisma den shop here and there so sian lo.. in the end we went to far east even worst haha.. den finally came to cinelesiure den is like all my fault they wanted to watch "chronicle of Narnia" den is like the earliest is 5++ but too late for mi liao.. so we.. eh.. actually is Shareen and mi decided go play pool haha.. den is like had so much fun.. Some more Clara turn so... green with envy haha.. hmm... how she did hope it was not the two of us teach her how to play.. Haha the funniest part is comin.. den is like after we play i complaint hungry... i so touch for mi they eat with mi.. anyway is like we were eatin half way den, we saw this forgiener wearin santa hat... So i as the two of them, wad is christmas celebratin.. they said jesus.. so is like i said how did santa came into the pic.. haha.. so we chatted and chatted is like so much fun den is like i suddenly asked, as we did talk bout mother mary.. so is like i told them.. one of my friend once said Why pray to mother mary to as jesus to grant ur prayer.. when u can juz ask jesus.. den u know wad clara started giggling.. den cuz her mouth got chewed up fries and also drinks.. she PUWW... actually not that bad la.. haha she could not stand it and juz spitted it out on the servitte.. haha.. another joke she made is when we were at the MRT station.. we suddenly talk bout geisha so is like clara said geisha use "fan" to dance ya fan in english is rite but she said it in chinese which meant "Electrical Fan" haha.. so is like we were imaginin ways how they use that to play.. haha so much fun.. so we went to punggol end finally haiz.. so clamin.. made mi think of a lot of things.. haha.. eh.. den at nite something happen i cant tell u all.. i was so happy.. haha.. kk.. hope u all enjoy urself too haha.. happy new year..

FUN FUN FUN

2005-12-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

today very fun wor haha gone to take my eagles award den is like went out haha.. den is like eh.. i dunno haha nearly lost my 150 dollar haha the rest was like whole lot of joke i will tell u all tomoro i kinda cant use com in a rush haha take care everyone

Lost and mayb cannot b found

2005-12-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

Hey hi everyone lot of things happen this december.. i broke up with my gal.. but to say i'm quite enjoyin my own life now.. hope she does too.. haha.. mi really a lot of things in mind there is someone i have not chatted in months.. i realli miss her.. haiz.. chrish when only the person is gone is realli a very painful experience.. i know it myself deep down in mi i still love her.. juz becuz of some reason i had to break with her... do she really wanna forget and erase mi now.. haiz hope she dont.. anyway i found something else instead... i found that there is someone that stands a place right beside my ex.. that's my god-sis CLARA... cannot let my real sis see this if not she will jealous haha.. my jie had really always been there for mi.. tell u all something no one actually can match up the place my ex stands in my heart except my jie.. haha.. u all jealous rite.. but she have her own circle of friends that she trust so i actually to wad i see is juz another average joe... there is another jie i have but still clara stands a deeper ground in my heart.. HAHA.. now i know life isnt that bad alone haha.. i guess there are people that seriously care for mi haha.. yawn... so sleep.. some more now afternoon haha.. eh.. dunno wad to do so bored dun realli wanna go bother clara.. yawn.. nvm see wad ca i do myself haha.. bye.. dun miss mi too much k.. haha kiddin..!!

I Got a update

2005-12-18T15:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz i know i very long never update but nobody come see so update for wad.. this few days alot on mind kinda very confused dunno wad to do mayb i am too sleepy or there i have no mood for somethings.. dunno wad to do haiz... >=( mi dunno now still can do wad how i wish i can lead my own life.. wad is love.. i'm now confuse over this..

Life goes on

2005-09-10T21:35:00.000+08:00

my life now goes on i have finall learn to let go once and for all... my life now is juz like normal... but now everyday muz serve my piggie haha... ya it's fine wid me i realli like her she veri good and understandin and she realli need someone by her side... hehe... dunno is it me??? ya... then hor the rest is nothin lor life still the same haha.. play... sleep... slack... enjoy lor.. ya i am gettin older liao very the wa kao haha... then now also very sian my com so slow wan play maple also got problem haha... yawn sian sian dunno wat to update.. also no point my blog almost as good as dead liao no one even bother to go tag for me except for my piggie haixx... SIAN... i go play my neopet le dun talk to u all liao all forget bout me de....

teachers' day...

2005-09-01T14:11:00.000+08:00

Today is teachers' day or sumthing like that... haha... aniway it's like i feel firstly bad cuz didnt bought anything for any of my teacher but tot of buyin for all that i know next year mayb especially miss loo cuz she is the onli teacher that taught me for 4 whole year... haha... yet not forgettin those teacher who had teacher mi all the years like miss wat, miss lo yen ni and mdm sujatha but sadly my fav teacher mr victor ong is gone... dunno where he hide last year play hide and seek with him till now i still cant find him... haha jokin i guess he transfer liao haha... ya k.. juz wanna thx all teacher out ther hmmmm kinda think of teacher i have one more to the list my tutor mr chua haha... he realli help mi lot his teachin brought my mark for a unbelieving 20-30 all the way up to a pass at least for the final year papers onli haha... overall hehe still like shit haha... lets talk bout today quite lame lor the concert but there was toucjin sence haha... dunno next year will worse a not haha... haix... speakin bout next year i wonder can i make and struggle my way up to 5n haix... i better do.... so scare.... k stop here i guess cuz my mum is such a nag haha... jokin.... ya my new motto DUN WORRY B FUNNI HAHA............

ShIok SiaL

2005-08-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a bored day at first cuz 2 period P.E. then WORSE 4 PERIOD MATH disturbin... haha.... aniway... this week should b a ok week ba... dunno where to go this sat haha... aniway.. quite happi that after that 6 period of hell comes 6 free period... haha... did nothin much.. played chess with Keng hao and Samual... he pro in checker siaL haha... ok lah... though i lose but i did had fun... mi and Keng also talk bout when want to have the second competition haha.. he say u can win leh... dunno i quite scare haha... cuz my skill in intial D gettin rusty... haha... when i am still a noob my skill start to rust... haha... wonder can i ever b a pro man... haiz.... Sian... cuz almost impossible lor... haha.... but at least i still can play and drive to a certain standard good enuf le... haha... dunno y some so pro mayb they everyday play.. and also mayb got bugged car haha... hope that i can win in most of the map ba.. haix... And also my dream to b the faster Akina downhill dry driver kinda look impossible liao... i lost my touch with my cappuccino haha... ah.. wad the hac who cares i onli play for leisure haha...

swEeT MeMorIes

2005-08-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday though i live like like normal it was a special day to me... haha.... hmmm... nothin much happen lately... haha... ya her birthday comin soon le.. happi birthday... best wishin to u n norton... oh... did SS prelium then also on sat playin Chi Chess competetin lor.. stress got 2 stong very strong player i fear that i can never beat hope by tomoro i become god like haha... k i think i stop here ba... oh... check out my new blog at egen.org.sg

memories

2005-07-18T12:28:00.000+08:00

Yeah quite long never post le... hi everyone haha... hmmm... ya today to me is a special say but i cant say y haha... anyway... kinda wanna change my blog skin again cuz kinda dun find it so nice lor... hehe... hmmm... nthin much to write though... oh... ya wee shen had set 2 record for ba fang in intial D at bugis and hougang mall second place cool huh... gotta thank him haha... hmmm.... then nothin much le.. juz went to take some neoprints on 16/7/05 then went home... haha... sweet memories haha... hmmm... k nthin much to write guess i end here haha... god bless everyone nitez...

a good day turn bad

2005-07-05T12:02:00.000+08:00

Today was and i mean WAS a good day... was so happi goin out reach home had my fun watchin tv then i went online to check my mail wad do u think i see Waoh something that piss me off and do i mean PISS ME OFF this was bout friday... when it was NCC day... it was fine actualli then i so call changed the timer so i got told off by jun kai i didnt mind then cuz i didnt knew so i accepted the so call scoldin then u know wad some smart guy which i see him as my bro come piss me off even more when i saw the e-mail he sent me... mayb the way he wrote SHOULD have being a bit more like a friend friend thing but u know wad the way he wrote it as if i am totally at fault man... waoh... did anyone cork up the marchin i dun think so... Yeah i repeat i knew that i was wrong... but i realli at first did not know that i cant change the timer... and durin that time no one came to tell me cant change so as someone who didnt knew anything how do u feel when u get told off huh?? I am juz so pissed of rite now that his tone is so hush lor... come on everyone made mistake... after that guy get scoldin then if he learn his lesson that's it, SO y the hell go bother that guy again rite... that's what blood hell i get do u think i do not have the rite to piss off huh... F man god also got temper dun say me.... Bloody hell piss me off wid tis subject see wad i will do man try me... Dun think that everything hor is u correct... keng hao next time ask properly first... the way u write hor will realli piss anyone off... then hor i respect u but please hor respect me also hor... Next time ask before u continue ur bloody so call scoldin hor... ask whether i got scold liao a not hor... if not hor when i realli have my temper boilin to the max hor... i realli dun care who the hell u r hor... u lucky i good temper... if not u would have juz gotten scold by me now is i tell u onli i not scoldin or criticizin u... So please forget bout this case as i told me the reason k... now i am coo down DUN and i mean DUN piss me off... wid this topic again

an experience of life

2005-06-28T14:03:00.000+08:00

here i am to share an experience wid u keng hao... to wad you feel is juz all bout ur feelin haha though man do not have menses but mood of ours do change eh.... this is juz normal lor... i did have all this feelin before i feel that the whole world is against me i feel that there is no meanin in life but wad do i seek in life i asked myself... kinda think of it lost of something is a gain of a experience you may not have change it is juz that mayb there is changes in some other pple life... sometimes lifes go not to ur flow cuz pple have their own life too... but somethings will never change i may talk to u less i may not play wid u like last time but i will still hear u out... things never change much i didnt change it's juz that i have this very bad habit that i have to live wid and u have to accept that is i sometime may go crazy for a period of time and chat non stop and sometime i juz stop wid out a reason so try to understnad the rest wise nothin much change i do talk to u in class wad mayb for today SS i bcuz i tired k me have to slp le nite

normal day

2005-06-26T13:40:00.000+08:00

haha... my id finish all the map liao lefrt that blooby brunta dunno how to win.. haha... my day the rest all the same go home do nothin haha... like so no life everyday do the same thing... haha... this will b a very short update... k nite everyone

BoRin

2005-05-30T09:47:00.000+08:00

Haha this two day so bored after exam dunno wad to do.. haha oh.. ya i also start to play a3 liao... hmm i created warrior quite good lor.. haha... eh... ya i notice one thing my blog had already become unknown to any man kind except myself liao... haha... nobody help me to tag sad sad... haha.. oh.. ya today is the second day i play a3 i guess haha... i already level 11 but which is still like so low.. haha.. hmm... k... depending tat my blog had become a unknown blog i think i dun write so much le.. haha... oh... wait wait one last thing i nearly master Akina liao but i still so far away for my goal haha... nvm... anyway good nitez

Finally

2005-05-22T09:56:00.000+08:00

Yo... everyone... finally can update liao, haha after so many things lor f sia dunno who go and block the blogger... haha perhaps a hacker?? haha... exam comin soon... muz strive hard liao... hmm... ya my Initial D finally play much better liao... haha... now i have a goal to b the fastest Akina Downhill Dry Drive ever known Muahahaha... Haha eh... but still now a days quite bored haha... gonna try playin A3 online haha... gonna create warrior... haha.... play game also can stress haha... cuz some tell me that this good this hard to use wah... headache haha... eh... oh... ya jie dun so sad k... remember next time depress come find me... i will try to spread some of my laughter to u haha... k... that's all liao.... nth much happen this few days anyway... haha.... oh... ya i fell sick haha... but ok liao so no prob man k... nite everyone gotta go have my dinner a go study liao haha bye...

?? strange day??

2005-05-07T14:08:00.000+08:00

Today yawn... bored lor wad else haha... found out something that i am not gonna say... aniway yesterday was an ok day, went to watch "Caoch Cater" nice show meaningful... haha... eh.... today keng hao's birthday... yeah happi birthday.. and to y today starnge day is because actualli i dun have to go school de... then in de end went to do my art haha... fun though... eh... secondly is that today i didnt know wad happen and my time juz past blankly but one thing is that i know at least i am not alone.. haha... eh.. ok lah... i also use to wasting my life liao haha... eh.. ya my initial D finalli level 12 liao haha... my Akina is gettin better and my car is more tuned haha... but i am still a noob haha.... k write till here k... yawn.. nite everyone... Nite Mummy, Nite Jie, Nite buddies, Nite Bros, Nite Sim... And the list go on and on... k NITE NITE!!!!!

fun day

2005-05-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

hi ya.... today was an ordinary day.... yawn.... but saturday was not... haha... me had great fun.... haha... watchin movie with wan nee and her sis... haha dun think too much... we are onli friends haha.... Hmmm ya... u know my initial d now dunno y like got down-graded haha... sobx... now me have to wait to re-tune my car again... haha... eh... back to saturday again... we went to watch infection... it was quite a nice show but it was even better seeing the two of them being frighten haha... look so funni and i have to admit cute too haha... eh... ya me gotta rush my first-hand observation and development study liao... by thurs muz finish... if not by friday when i need to like go to school when i dun have the need to go... haha... cuz they got chinese exam and i dun... cuz i CLB haha... fun... then mayb can sleep at home then after that mayb go play dunno aniway that day i die die also will find keng hao out to whack him de... Y cuz it is his birthday haha... k me gtg take my bath and do my art liao.. wah... still got so many more.... k k bye....