31 March 2006
Hi everyone.. there is something that i forgot.. 11 days ago it was 19 march.. nothin special huh.. *(Saturday, March 19, 2005) this day was when my blog was born.. i cant believe one year juz flew pass like tat.. and that i'm still usin blog.. one year is not very long huh.. it took mi a year to almost onli almost forget about being back with her.. it tool mi one year to drop to 4n.. it took mi one year to see the true world.. so many things happen in one year.. i know there are even more peeps out there with blogs older den mine.. but this blog of mine contain all my feelings.. all tat happen to mi.. Now i learnt something new.. I re-learnt how to b a loner again.. This feels good.. i guess.. cuz u have all the time in the world for urself.. haha.. A friendship is like a boy/girl relationship.. let it go if u love that person.. if he or she comes back to you it is meant to b.. if they dont.. it was never to b started.. trust is wad is needed.. now i'm learnin to let go my friends.. all of them.. if they are trueful they will come to mi.. and not wait for mi to go to them.. some says it is ur initiative.. ya it's MINE.. wad if i repeat the same thing to u.. it's ur initiative.. so why no u who come find mi.. It take to hand to clap.. i have been chargin to clap the other hand too much.. now i guess i should juz wait.. haha.. ok la.. write till here ba.. realli dunno wad to write le.. Final word of advice.. "Trust those tat trust you... BUT most importantly is to trust urself more den anyone else.."
12:07 PM
26 March 2006
Icicle.. guess nothin to.. went to clara jie blog... saw she wrote a flash back of secondary life.. hmm.. made it seems so short.. so let mi write my flash back too.. all the way to wad i did today k.. haha... So.. it's like mine go all the way back to when i am a kid.. haha.. so carefree.. those were the days wher people are healthy.. we dun lazy at home and stare into computer screen or go out and play lan.. we always play catchin.. fun rite.. tat was actualli enjoyable.. haha... den primary schooll still the same times still didnt change much.. at least for mi.. till primary 5 when i am in a new school everything change.. haha.. life is like as mention.. play lan.. play arcade.. all the way till today.. no life rite.. so anyway.. study.. study study.. wasnt realli interestin.. cuz i was a low profile person.. i often pester the dentist auntie and the library auntie also.. haha.. den.. up to secondary school lo.. wad else rite.. still low profile.. like as if nobody know mi like tat haha.. not like most their life is so colourful.. haha.. this 4 years.. if plus this year 5 i learn a lot of things.. things tat in one day u can never experience.. sec 1 i learn how to enjoy life.. cuz happi go lucky wad rite.. so dun care lo.. actualli up till now still the same same la.. haha.. sec 2 hmm.. learnt wad is friendship.. it is something tat cannot b measured usin time.. even now also still addin knowledge to this advice.. den sec 3.. haha i learn hell lot of things.. haha.. i learn wad is puppy love.. i learn wad is pain.. i learn wad is loneliness.. i learn wad is numbness in the heart tat cuz u to feel nothin.. i learnt how to b someone tat do not show my real emotion.. i learn wad is the cause of not studyin.. den sec 4 haha.. not too far away huh.. i learn tat sudden impulsion can lead to emotional.. and mental blindness.. and when u wake up from it.. it's too late.. haha.. eh.. yup.. den i learn to study.. i learnt and wished to b alone.. but didn't realli succeed.. den come to this year.. not long onli.. but i learn wad is issolation.. i learnt wad is to rather keep things in my heart.. i lost hope.. i lost my mind.. i now am so engrossed in my art piece.. tat is to b alone.. tat is to b issolated.. and i learnt when u know something is impossible and u try to find hope.. which in the end u can't.. wad u do.. lie to ur self.. lie tat it was a dream.. wad ever it is.. good or bad.. which all turn up bad la.. haha... so lie to urself.. but warn u it's like cuttin ur heart into piece inside out.. haha.. unless ur heart is as good as dead.. pls dun try this dreamin method cuz.. who can realli forget.. in our sub-conscious mind we have a memory.. a memory tat we store from the day we are born.. juz tat onli a day when u die this memory will flash.. haha.. yup long rite bet none of u can finish readin this haha.. who will..?? haha.. k ba stop here la... if not can write essay le... haha...
4:57 PM
23 March 2006
hi icicle.. guess now is onli you and mi.. haha.. today.. is juz another day.. another keng hei.. haha.. nothin much realli happen lo... dunno whether later goin play a not.. realli very sian lo.. haiz.. i guess i made guo feng realli unhappi... cuz i didnt accompany him this few days as he asked mi out.. but i realli dun feel like it.. cuz this few days i not in the rite mind.. (to guo feng: if you ever come to my blog i juz wanna say sorry... cuz i realli dun not in good mood..) icicle.. i'm realli bored.. oh ya anyway jie.. please dun feel awkward talkin to mi.. k.. haha.. eh.. yup haha.. hope tat today you realli feel better.. haha.. if you realli feel upset bout something my phone is always funtional.. haha... ok i guess i write till here ba.. i wan go listen tian hei liao haha...
9:18 AM
22 March 2006
Confused.. blurred and all sorts of feelin.. icicle.. i'm tired... real tired of livin.. i'm totally confuse... this holiday dun feel like holiday.. now still got tons of work to do.. can i juz break my arms and legs.. so i can b in the hospital... so at least like tat i know who will come see mi... haiz.. dunno wad to write le... i'm juz so confused...
11:00 AM
09 March 2006
Hi icicle.. yawn.. can barely keep my eyes open liao.. dunno wad to write leh.. not much event la.. same old lo.. so sian.. go school study come home stare into space or com.. haha.. no life man.. haha.. eh.. yup.. this year quite stress homework like tissue paper like tat.. one whole roll sia.. keep on stain with shit.. which is all the ink.. haha.. ya life now a lot more relax dun have her on my mind liao.. why love some one who dun love u.. haha.. rite.. so love those who do love mi.. haha... k write till here ba.. anyway clara cheer up.. i'm always here.. haha...
1:50 PM
04 March 2006
SOME FREAKIN ASS STOLE MY BLOODY PHONE.. CURSE HIM/HER.. TILL THE HAND TO THE WHOLE BODY ROT INSIDE OUT... OK i guess tat's all the rest i tell u tomoro k.. bye icicle
11:19 AM
01 March 2006
Icicle.. keng hei's heart stopped.. from this moment onwards his heart stopped.. keng hei is but a past memory.. time to move on they say.. can a dead corpse move on.. what is love.. it is something tat realli makes my life a misery... i wanna b single.. i wanna find a place where i can b all alone.. icicle.. this may be the end of keng hei.. as his heart had finally beat it's very last...
1:38 PM