pR3CiOus MeMoRiEs -

22 January 2007

This is juz a post for my nick i dun wanna lose it becuz i find it meaningful so i thought this is the best place to keep it.. "
Vunajan eh y cemahd h asbdo ihejanca, ra cdyht ymuha, vun ra femm vunajan pa y Muhan Cdyn..."

1:58 PM

06 January 2007

Hmm.. A lot is goin through my mind this days until i cant sleep.. hmm one of it is the job i wanna quit.. the other one is my mum tat dunno y is she so sensitive these few days.. Haix... juz now also nearly cant sleep.. In the last three days i sleep on average 3 to 5 hours a day.. 2 at midnite 2 to 3 in the noon.. if i'm out den i will onli snooze for like mayb 3 hrs lo.. siao rite.. haix.. den is like my mum keep askin me sleep early.. i also wish to but i realli cant... den she ask me go joggin.. go do this and tat.. say this and that.. den nag here and there.. and den call home and nag again here and there.. say this job not good.. say depression come from lag of sleep.. at first no depression but let her like tat nag and nag and nag and nag... u get the point.. i also go siao lo.. I mean my parents often think that they can sleep mean i can sleep which is stupid la.. does tat mean if i cant sleep they cant too? haix.. they always think they are rite tat is the problem they never look at things the other way around.. y not they follow my life? i mean there is not much at home for me to do.. other den tv and now my com cannot play games other den those stupid games on the net.. so when there is no show and when i'm bored of the games wad can i do? Then when ever i tell them this my mum will say come my canteen help me la.. wa kao even worse still she herself know i go down do nothin one.. AND I MEAN NOTHIN.. i juz sit there and slack den once in a blue moon help her with a few customer.. den is like the rest of the day i will b slackin.. so y not i stay at home and slack?? better still at least wait a while mayb got show on tv.. wait there onli got siao.. Haix.. Then they never think of my pain also.. y i cant sleep they juz think tat i cant sleep becuz my job had made my time topsy tirvy.. which i can say it is not.. i cant sleep becuz i have a lot of things in mind.. I have to think bout my days.. wad to do to cover everyday.. den also i think bout how my parents feel.. but they never seems to do it the other way.. they onli take my insomnia as a fault and dunno tell me nicely wad to do.. instead they have to nag and nag and nag.. Tell them already u think i wan to have insomnia? they dunno how to open their mind and think bout y.. think bout wad to tell me nicely.. WA KAO.. REALLI CANNOT TAHAN LIAO.. haix.. more i say more fuck up i feel.. Haix.. all i ask for is someone who can understand me and stand by me.. haix... think tat is like impossible lo.. I think i will settle this problem with them on sunday.. i will ask them into my room and talk.. they gotta understand wad i feel and not wad they think is rite to feel.. This is one of those things that i can say tat is botherin my sleep the rest i shall keep it in silence.. haha.. i think long enuf le.. cuz also no one come read and see de.. haha..

6:53 AM